Pics From Highlands (Part 2)..

Solos/Duet

first meal in highlands (wif cullen skink - nice!!)

sceneries in highlands

tradition vs fashion

ppl in kilts

unknown flower in highlands

Pics From Highlands (Part 1)..

3 days, 2 nites in highlands..38 different races, country ppl (unknown number of males n females)..592 pictures taken..

now, for the random pictures taken in highlands

enjoy...

tour guides/drivers

group pics

Greetings from Swiss

hihi..i am now in lucerne, swiss..bloggin from transport museum..hehehe..tat is all for now..will blog later when i go back glasgow!!

Holidays~

finally..holidays are here..hehe..hadnt been updatin since pp3 exam..had been busy wif work lately..so din get the chance to update..will b busier the next few days..in a few hours time i am goin to edinburgh..so this will b a short one..cos i haven slept..anyway, wont b updatin till i am back from holidays..so dun expect anythin new till 25/9/06..

might post up some random pics after holidays..hope it'll be a great holiday..n hope i dun get too tired tmr to enjoy edinburgh..

see ya guys..

finally bought it..lol..name her neno..not a surprise eh?wanted to buy the lying down one..sigh..sold out..too bad..shud haf bought it when i saw it las time..anyway, this is cute as well..

Eradication of the Ever Annoying Boiling Ant...

one more hour to go..and i am checkin if i am ready..today..at 1.30pm, i am goin to go against all obstacles..with only one aim..to exterminate the ever kanasai boiling ant..for the welfare of others..the ant must die..it will be a do or die mission..n i haf only 3 hours to completely exterminate the queen ant..i must succeed!!wish me luck..

Thanks..

special thanks to yee sian..cos most of the tatty teddies was from her..and also tatty teddy's official website..ok lar..goin to sleep ad..nite nite..oh, yee sian, if u wan the wallpaper let me noe..hehehe..gif u for free..but if u wanna join in the fun n spot the diff let me noe..

hint: it would be easier to spot the diff if u see the two pictures at their original size..

Tatty Teddies AGAIN..

hehe..i agree i am bored..really bored..i made a few changes to my tatty teddy wallpaper..three actually..wonder if u can spot them..hehe..two of them are quite obvious..the third one is kinda hard..no prize to this contest though..but if u dun mind i can personalise the tatty teddy wallpaper for u..

spot the difference..u might wanna enlarge it..

hope tat agnes gets well soon..sigh..damn guilty..anyway, got to go..haf to finish up my protocol..erm..actually to start the protocol..to everyone who's taking the degree exam for PP3,

GOOD LUCK N ALL THE BEST FOR PP3!!

Tatty Teddies..

the time now is 3.30am..i am still awake..whole body aches..damn tired..was too enthusiastic jus now in choosin a new wallpaper for my laptop..downloaded quite a few..in the end..i din use any of them..but i used them for my msn background though..each group has a diff background..

after neno-ing for so long, i haf finally chose this wallpaper for my laptop..hehe..the best part is tat i made it myself..ok lar..gtg..bath n stuff then sleep..nitez~

i think i did quite a good job..lol..

Don't Ever Tell..

Don't Ever Tell..my first book in Glasgow..by Kathy O'Breirne..is a true story of the author..havevn read though..bought it on 22/8/2006..have been eyeing it since it was around £10..hehe..bought it for £3.73..plan to read it after PP3..think it'll b a nice book..most true stories are..so much to do after the exams..sigh..movies lar, tvb series lar, books lar, tour lar...y cant they gif us more holiday??sigh..

pls ignore the unknown sign in front of the pounds sign..cos i copied the pounds sign from words..

One More Paper to Go..

was damn happy yest..cos bought a lot of stuff..which means i am broke now..lol..but was happy nonetheless except for a couple of hiccups..everythin went smoothly i would say..hehe..today was great too..although din haf much time to explore kelvingrove thoroughly..there were many places where i nv even went..sad..but it was a great place..wanna go next time..although definitely not tmr..my legs are goin to break after tat much amount of walk..hehe..great exercise i guess..

oh well..tmr haf to do the neno protocol..sigh..my PP3 exam is on tuesday..hope i'll pass..no..i HAF to pass..damn tired now..

i think i blogged a longer entry yest..jus tat i din manage to publish the post..then i close the window w/o saving it..sigh..dunno wat's wrong wif me..goin crazy ad..anyway, i forgot wat i wrote in tat entry..i onli noe one thing..i was n still am overwhelm wif happiness..lol..

will post some random pics tat i took previously n today..hehe..will post them soon..not now..cos kinda lazy now..lol..

Hatred..

i hate this place..i hate the weather..sigh..most importantly..i hate myself..dunno wat the hell i am doin here..a waste of time n money..sigh..everyone's been sayin tat i'm not the ai lian they knew..cos i sudd sigh a lot..sigh..i dunno wat happen too..anyway, i'll b resitin for lots of exams..

to cheer me up, agnes treated me lunch at chinese buffet as promised..but somehow, the attempt failed..probably cos the food there is not up to my expectations..mayb it's the weather..as if it's cryin wif me too..

one more paper to go..shud b two..there's the PP3 on 29th o 30th..wat i need now is not luck..wat i need now is sth more..anyone noes any cure for laziness?n lack of semangat?

Failure..

i am such a failure..sigh..9 more hours to go n i haf to sit for my fmt 1 degree exam..n i haf not studied..sigh..dead..

Exemption..FMT..Panic..Stress..Depress..

33 hours n 4 minutes to go before my Exemption Test..i desperately need to pass my exemption..sigh..how..i haf no idea..i only noe i need to pass..i mus pass..

60 hours n 34 minutes to go before my PP3 Video Exam..sigh..i hope i rmr my stuff well..n maintain sufficient eye contact..not forgettin a v important factor..EMPATHY!!

94 hours n 4 minutes to go before my FMT 1 Degree Exam..i dunno how i am goin to survive..judgin from the fact tat i haf not touched my FMT books yet..sigh..i need more time..but tat's impossible..no point regrettin now..haf to look forward..i mus pass..

156 hours n 4 minutes to go before my FMT 2 Degree Exam..likewise, i haven touch the book..sigh..i realli need to pass this time..

realli wanna continue study..yet i cant skip my sleep..i'm tired..yet i wanna study..sigh..stress to the max..my headache is back..

time is slipping by..faster n faster....

ALL THE BEST PPL FOR PP3, FMT 1 N 2..

too wuliao i guess..sigh..goin to sleep soon..nite ppl..

Great Expectations..

i din noe my parents had such high hopes on me..perhaps i shud haf realised it earlier..jus tat i dun wan to..it's so damn obvious..but yesterday's conversation really made me realised how huge the expectations my parents had..yet, i haf crushed their hopes again..sigh..cant go on like this..i haf to really really buck up..hope i can get exempted for PP3..all the best to everyone too..

EXPLOSION!!

i almost died of air pollution jus now..the explosion happened so abruptly, leaving me lil time to take cover..n the tot of me still havin my dinner at the time of the explosion jus disgusts me further more..all i can say now is tat i'm thankful tat i'm still alive and tat my room is no where near the site of explosion..n thank God it din trigger the fire alarm..wat will the firemen think??i wonder..

They Say...

they say it's better to haf an extra fren than an enemy..so..when do u decide that the frenship shud b over?to me, i think it shud haf been over ages ago..i've been too kind..anyway, i'm glad..very very glad..tat it's finally over..hehehe..yes..i lost a fren today..n i'm not upset bout it..nor happy..jus glad..it's been way too long..hmm..i wont exactly call X a fren..since God noes when X ad start to cease to b a fren..more like parasite i guess..many of u may not agree...but as far as i am concern, the side of X that i saw is definitely not pretty..probably, i was too blind to see X's beautiful part..or mayb as time goes by, i forgot bout the beauty..wat is left now is all the unpleasant parts..i shud haf end this frenship earlier..shudnt haf let it to get so ugly b4 ending it..at any rate, i'm still glad..tat it's finally over..n now, i shud start prepare myself..to protect myself..from future parasites..the worst parasites of all..

they say i'm a much better person viewed from a distance..so mayb u shud keep a distance too..dun get too close..u might get hurt..dun say i din warn ya...

I AM FREE!! sort of..hehe..still haf exams to go..

Wat Happen?

sigh..melanie told me tag board now no problem ad..but i still haf problem wif it..still can access to blogs using it..but acc to elyne, keli n mel, they can..is there sth wrong wif my laptop?o my browser?o wat??whenever i try to open any site related to tag board my browser will hang..sigh..damn irritatin..someone, help!!

Holiday Mood..

hehehe..feel like as if i'm on holiday..dread to think bout the class test on monday..anyway, did this the whole noon..jus finish..think it looks nice..

Alone..

sigh..i think i really shud change..n stop being so neno..stop doing things tat ppl din ask me to..so i can stop hurtin myself..today was really a very bad day for me..never felt so idiot in my life..giving out so much..yet the other party will never noe..even if she noes, she might not appreciate it..

think i shud start being selfish n stop doing silly things for others..stop thinkin bout others..wat's the point anyway..i'm gettin hurt anyway..i shud haf jus care bout myself n tat's it..cos ppl nv appreciate a good deed..initially they might..soon, they take it for granted..

strange how this may sound..i am always surrounded by ppl..yet, i'm always alone..mayb i'm jus to hard to get along..watever..i'll jus haf to get myself used to this..n stop wastin my time n feelings on other ppl..

wonder if tmr will b better..

Wat The Hell!!

to anyone who's readin this..i tot it's ad a common sense that u shudnt wake/disturb anyone who's sleeping..unless it's very very urgent..n if u happen to wake someone else, pls b apologetic bout it..dun gif me the neno look when i ask u if u noe i'm sleeping..say u r sorry o sth like tat..at least i wont get tat angry wif ya..n quickly finish wat u wan from me so i can get back to sleep..do NOT obstruct me from my sleep..for those of u who dunno, i value my sleep more than my life..and unfortunately, i do not value mos frenship more than my sleep..so i dun care who u are..best to leave me alone while i'm sleepin..unless i told u to wake me up at a specific time..n in this case if i got angry, jus slap me..

note: even my family leave me alone when i'm sleepin unless necessary..if u think u haf a good reason to wake me up, pls clarify..dun jus wake me up w/o any reason..sleepy ppl r most blur..so unless u state it, i dunno wat the hell u wan from me..

DO NOT DISTURB ME WHILE I'M SLEEPIN..

Another Boring Day...

was reading other ppl's blog..saw sth interesting in elyne's blog..was sth tat i wanted to write about for long time but can nv express it in words..

today damn a lot of ambulance..more than ten passed by my place ad..wat's wrong??i hope nothin serious is going on..gtg for now..got another 100pages to cover..sigh..oh, if u happen to b visitin elyne's blog, do read bout our neno housemate as well..think it was well written..i hate Henry..his eternal smile infuriates me..sigh..but i still haf to put up wif him..his smile is so damn fake..n kinda like gloatin at us..sigh...

damn pissed of at myself today..damn clumsy..n brainless..spill the whole packet of mee on the floor..wonder if it's still edible..i picked the top ones n kept it..most, was thrown away..wasting..sigh..wat to do..i'm bcomin more n more brainless n useles..

Caring?

was too bored..so went tickle.com n did the quiz..n got the below results..

Your caring nature is earning you the most karma!

You seem to be one of those people who has an uncanny ability to anticipate and meet the needs of others around you. This nurturing quality has helped you earn your karma up to this point. Your thoughtfulness strengthens your current relationships, and suggests that such kindnesses will be repaid to you some time in the future. Through your concerted efforts to express how much you care, you generate good karma for yourself and the universe.

caring?hehe..i'm not so sure bout tat..they make me sound like a saint..which i'm obviously not.."Your thoughtfulness strengthens your current relationships, and suggests that such kindnesses will be repaid to you some time in the future." perhaps i'm being a bit pessimistic here..but from most of my experiences, kindness n caring doesnt pay much these days..mayb i'm jus tired of being myself..tired of helpin ppl..used to think tat if ppl needs help n i can help then i'll help..now, i'll b thinkin if i can do this by myself why cant u?selfish huh?guess as i grow older the more selfish i bcome..n i always tot the older one gets the more selfless one will be..strange how things turn out to be..sigh..used to love pink..but somehow now i hate tat colour..not those sweet light pink..but those neno pink(cant find the colour..not fluorescence pink..)..guessed it's normal gua..even if it's other colours if i haf to see it everyday n stuff, sooner o later i'll be sick of it..like how i'm feelin it nw..let's jus hope i'll change for the better..

lol..was supposed to post bout other stuffs first..but jus tat sudd feel like bloggin bout this first..

I'm So PROUD of Myself!!

hehe..i'm very very proud n pleased wif myself..for once..hehe..as u can see i've changed the blog skin..not bcos i dun like the old one..i like the old one..jus tat wanna change a bit..n somehow, this skin kinda suits my mood now..dunno how long this skin will last cos i intend to put the old skin back..depends on how the reactions are to this new skin..even now i've comments tat they cant find the buttons to click in..hmm..intend to put back the old skin..bcos it's done by someone dear to me..still is..tat's y i retain the song..even though i think it doesnt really suit this skin..does it?dunno..need comments on this..

i spent like 3 to 4 hours to make this thing work..damn neno i noe..sigh..wat to do..damn idiot in this..got to go now..going to george square..may blog later..depends on mood..

Hercules in Glasgow...

they say a picture is worth a thousand words..so i guess i shudnt say more..u'll understand when u see the pictures ..

before

after

Less Less Less..

i've decided..from today onwards, i'll cook lesser rice..lesser dishes..lesser portions..i've been worrying too much..too worried tat i starve my housemates..today only i realised i always cook too much..till they cant finish..haf to change this habit of mine fast..probably should cook faster too..since most of them are partially full when i'm done..due to the food they store in their rooms..wonder wat happened to the excess soup..perhaps not going to boil any soup in future..

FMT Class Tests..

din wanna post anythin one..basically jus plain lazy n nothing to tok bout..but since i ad log in to change a few things on my blog n i cant sleep, i guess i'll jus update my life no matter how meaningless it seems..

hehe..if someone sees this he/she might neno me for it..cos life's nv meaningless..but meaningless to me as in there's nothin much to write about..things are certainly gettin mundane here..when it wasnt, i was jus too lazy to blog..

for those back at home, i've got public holidays on 14th n 17th..why?i have no idea..hehe..anyone who noes let me noe k?it may seem to b a great opportunity to go travel ard glasgow..too bad..everythin happens for a reason..i've to stay at home n eat my two thick FMT books..even after eatin them i still dun understand the stuffs..useles..my FMT class tests are on 18th n 20th respectively..all together i've got ard 500 pages to eat..the good news is..it's multiple choice questions..for someone lack of ambitions like me, a pass will b good enuff..n if i'm lucky enuff, i probably will get 60 over for both class tests..but experience taught me not to expect too high..then u wont get hurt tat much..bsides if u score higher than expected u'll b over the moon..a perfect way to deceive urself..i've totally mastered it..very easy to achieve too..jus sleep ur troubles away..

it doesnt matter if u dun understand this entry..i myself haf difficulty in understandin it..reason y is cos i'm writin this w/o a clear mind..woke up two hour ago..but still feel tat part of me is sleepin..dun ask me bout this either cos i'll forget 90% of this after my sleep..usually does..wonder how am i going to pass my tests n how i've managed to pass them..since i normally forget 90% of the stuff..

ok..enuff of neno-ing..wanna go back to sleep now..shud haf gone back to sleep one hour ago..tmr got to start study..sigh..tak ada mood langsung..part of me hope tat the class test will b postphone..part of me dun..in the end i decided tat i'll jus let nature takes its course..while i watch the world from my dreamland..

GOOD LUCK PPL..FOR FMT CLASS TEST..

PS:i jus change my chatter box to tag board..spent like more than an hour to choose the colour to match my blog..dunno whether it suits o not..let me noe wat u think ok?thanks..nite ppl...

I'm Not ME

it may be removed..but let this b a reminder..i'm no longer the Ai Lian tat P1/04 knew..

I've Been Dreamin for Too Long....

i've been dreamin for too long..until my eyes are clouded..until i cant tell wat is reality n wat is fantasy..sigh..

n only now i've realised how unfair this world is..how unfair ppl tend to judge u..how unfair each person is treated..today, i feel tat i've been judged n treated unfairly..today, is also the day where other ppl at other parts of the world who are judged n treated more unfairly than me..n yet, i haf always tot that this world is fair..that humans are blessed wif eyes..eyes tat were given for us to see..to see the diff bet right n wrong..yet, some of us are too blinded..for once i'm loss..am i doing the right thing??i guess i've been sleeping too much..way too much..i can feel the "old" me creeping back..is this a good thing?i dunno...

wat i do noe is tat i've tried my entire life to control the "old" me..to control it so that i might bcome a better person..yet, i think i'm fightin a losing battle..n i dun care anymore..i'm tired..seriously tired..tired of thinkin..tired of being judged unfairly every time..tired of everythin..

total equality may come one day..it may not..i used to think tat it's possible to haf equal treatment, equal judgement..as long as we humans try..now, i think i've been sleeping n dreamin for too long..

i feel like shoutin..but i cant..i feel like cryin..but i cant..mayb i should jus go back to sleep..n nv wakes up..to those who had judge me before..dun b too eager to judge ppl next time..u r not God..hence, dun judge ppl..

i'm sick of everythin...i've never felt like saying fuck u so much in my life.........bcos today i lost my freedom..

Bed Bugs!!

sigh..i really think village office should jus move us to thomas campbell court..the bed bugs in james blyth court is spreadin..and damn fast too..now i dun dare to open my windows cos acc to some ppl the bed bugs flew into their room..although i cant imagine how..sigh..i still worried they can creep in thru holes in the unit..

I wanna move!!

i dun think it's possible though..cos i heard those who are ad affected are moved to j flat temporarily..sigh...

btw, i cut my hair..hehehe..not really used to it..but i think it looks damn nice..my hairstylist is tze yan..thanks for the hair cut, tze yan!!

Masterpiece

i finally got the molecular formula right..lol..

For My Sis

at the botanical garden..

me n elyne

blur

dunno the name of the flowers..but nice..

can u spot the bee?

his name is jeff

Japanese?

my batch mates are in bbc news..this pic was taken on 10th june on the west end festival in glasgow..one of the staff in strathclyde saw it..n told keli who in turn told my housemates..u can get the pic at bbc news

tat's all for now..too many stuff happen over the weekend..lazy to blog..oh ya..i think my photography skills improve a lot..hehehe..took many pics on the weekends..but i love the one below the most..cos it's a lady bird!!

My First Cookin in Glasgow

pasta in mayonise, light soya sauce, chicken ham, egg n mushroom..too much pasta added..so cant really see the other ingredients..

vege for the day..no idea wat it is called in english..

tat's all for dinner..looks miserable..

my first cookin in glasgow..was on 13th june..today (16th june) supposed to cook as well..but in the end din..so i guess on mon i got to cook..

think i got to sleep now ad..tmr got to get up early n go for city tour..

My Add n More

oh ya..forgot to include my address..n some pics..

Block H Flat 9-1,
James Blyth Court,
57, Rottenrow East,
Glasgow G4 0NG.

i dun think i'm giving my phone number..cos it's a land line n i'll be in uni most of the times..wat to do..9-5 classes..mon-fri..n i think it's much much cheaper if i call u..hehehe..which is kinda rare lar..will let u noe if i got a mobile..not so soon though..

my bed..love it..looks so much like candy..lol

the view outside my window..daytime..

the view outside my window..at nite..

my lovely student id..lol..love it lots..much much nicer than imu's..

huey and her spagetti..our first meal here..

agnes wif hers..

mine..

finished in a meal..sorry elyne!!

my left ear..

my right ear..

guess wat they are doin..

at the subway..oso known as the "tube"..i think..on my way to hillhead for the carnival..

ok..got to stop here..too many pics to upload..not tat the connection here sux..in fact it's much much faster than at home..i'm jus tired..wanna sleep ad..nite ppl..oh ya..the time diff here in summer is 7 hours..from m'sia..

btw..my chatter box has prob..can anyone not in strathclyde see the chatterbox??anyone noe how to get a new one??cos my last one is not done by me..lol..thanks a lot!!

Glasgow

i'm way behind in writing blog if i were to compare to other ppl..hehehe..anyway, i reached glasgow safe n sound..n i'm love this place so much i really really dun wanna go back..mayb it's for summer only..who noes by the time winter comes i'm dying to go back..

i think on the whole my mind sort of receive this new environment wif open arms..my body however, is another story..had rashes yest..started from my feet..then it moves up..until it covers my whole body..took a pic of it..not very clear though..had to go to jasmine's place to borrow shorts..cos i din haf any..i really tot glasgow is like north pole..cold cold cold..to my surprise it was hot hot hot..thank God now it's getting colder..hehehe..which is bad news..cos i'm getting sleepier..

today, i had this really pain stomach ache (hmm..this sentence sounds so strange..)..was fine in the mornin but during the noon, the pain started..till it was so bad that i can hardly stand..n for those who noes how glasgow is like (ur only transport is walk..walk..n more walk..) might noe how i felt..so i left the lab session in noon early..i think hardly anyone except those who noe notice my disappearance..cos everyone is busy wif their stuff..anyway, now i'm feeling much better..although still a bit pain..

i'm the only one in the class i blieve who had been to the townhead health centre (it's a hospital i think) thrice within a week..n i certainly hope i wont b going there any more..after my appointment on 27th tat is..

well, my impressions bout glasgow (not so good ones) are basically tired tired tired..walk walk walk..hills hills hills..busy busy busy..hot hot hot (although now it's not quite true)..n finally, expensive expensive expensive..hmm..i find tat even though some stuffs are really expensive, there are some which are really cheap..erm, i think it's only applicable to gals..cos so far all those tat i find cheap are those for gals..hehehe..

good impressions will be the weather (i'm kinda contradicting myself..i noe)..the ppl (all tat i've met so far are polite n frenly..although some were quite unfrenly but still tolerable..i've heard some extreme cases though..like wen wei's hat was snatch while walking..also not forgettin jasper's room was bombarded wif stones by the local..the reason? i've no idea at all..they are prob all drunk o half way..cos i've seen them at their fav spot..rite outside my window..)..so except for the few cases, i felt that generally the ppl here are much much better than in malaysia..n ard here, it's fairly safe..cos back in malaysia i always haf to worry bout snatch thief n stuff..but i guess ard here ppl dun snatch ur stuff..they "pick" ur stuff..hence the word pick pockets..

i'm still trying to get use to the scottish slang which varies among the ppl here..some has a much diff to understand slang some are generally ok..wasnt really used to their coins as well..except one pound which is fairly easy to recognise..but i guess i'm getting used to it..

oh ya..i wonder was it the cold o the walkings..cos i tend to eat more here..a lot more..sigh..hope i wont get fat..i dun think i will wif all the walkin..lol..

went to the west side of glasgow on sunday for a carnival..sat the "tube"..which cost me 2 pounds..sigh..kinda "xin tong"..anyway, i really regret not explorin the place more during the carnival..esp after seeing acrix's photo n heard bout other ppl's experiences..sigh..no point regrettin now i guess..also regret not transferin my photos n videos to my laptop bfore the carnival..cos i only manage to take two photos of the carnival n my memory card was full..to think i even brought along an extra batt jus in case..sigh..so i'm going to get the pics from acrix soon..i hope..

glasgow is nv boring..there's always activities here..forget bout world cup..yest, sth interesting n funny happen..always makes me laugh when i think back..for more details, pls visit here..but i'm sure most P1/04 blogs will haf sth on it..for accurate details of the whole incident, pls ask the main character himself..cos i'm not so sure bout the details..only noe wat happen roughly..kinda "kesian" him..cos he had to pay 100 pounds for that little "prank" he played..

oh ya..i'm currently broke cos i paid like 90 pounds for five books..three of which are photostated copies..n i had not bank in my bank draft yet..sigh..so basically i'm "eating air" nowadays..which explains y i had a tummy upset today..

had pp3 lab officially today..enjoyed it to the max..how fun if there wasnt any stress attached..noe-ing tat no marks is gonna go into ur assessment..too bad that's not the case..jus hope i pass my pp3..

my hands still reeks of garlic..even after 24 hours..sigh..next time i cook i'm not going to use garlic..think i got to stop now..haf to sleep o else tmr i'm going to doze off again..like tues..slept in front of dr gray..hope i din left out anythin cos a lot had happened within these few days..

Sick..Really Sick..

ok..so tat was not the last entry bfore i leave for glasgow..sigh..dunno y sudd got so many things to write..but this one will b damn short..

sigh..first, it's sore throat..then flu..then cough..now, diarrheoa...sigh..hope will b ok by tues..

I WANNA GET WELL SOON..

When Too Much Love Means Trouble..

sigh..i tot the last entry for my blog bfore i go over to glasgow will b on the convo on 27th may..but since everyone has ad blog bout it since last week n since i dun haf many pics of myself..i think i'll jus skip the convo thingy..

i just came back from kl on 1st june..and ad i was n still am surrounded wif love..too much perhaps..everyone seems to wan me for themselves..lol..it does sounds as if i'm damn attractive..wat to do..now only left around two days bfore i leave for glasgow for a year..wif someone as talkative as me sure got ppl miss one lar..hehehe..

to show how popular i am at home, i decided to show a few examples..sigh..i worry by tues i ad grown fat like a pig..

scene 1:

main concern: din get the chance to eat all the food before leaving..

solution: cook as much food for me as possible

problem: problem arises when my parents n grandparents are both anxious bout me..how, u may ask..i tell u how..as usual i went to granny's place for dinner..noe-ing i got to leave soon, my granny cooked a lot for me..tat's pretty acceptable..problem occurs when i dun eat much during dinner..reason : i was sick..n still am..wif sore throat, cough n cold..so, no heaty food n spicy food for me..next, when i reach home, my mum went to cook fish for me..apparently, my dad bought some really huge fish..n asked my mum to cook for me..again the problem arises when i dun eat much..reason: i jus had dinner at granny's place..n the fish was fried..in assam flavour..wif my granny's damn hot chilli..since i was pretty full n i was having sore throat, i din eat much..so dad was doing wat he is best at times like this..grumbling..so i explain to him tat i was having sore throat..n i cant eat much cos it's fried n spicy..can never tell him i was kinda full..o else the grumbling will never stop..instead of stop grumbling he told me tat it's ok to eat the fried fish..tat it wont affect my sore throat etc..so in the end i ended up damn full..

scene 2:

main concern: din get the chance to eat all the food before leaving again..

solution: cook as much food for me as possible again..

problem: this time, granny cooked my favourite curry..even though she knew i got sore throat etc..well, being the neno me, how can i missed my favourite curry??so i ate even though i had sore throat..din eat rice though..cos dad told me not too..tonite there's more fish again..this time it's fish head..problem arise when mum discover i was having curry..dad was kinda angry (his feelings started from worry..worry tat i wont get well soon..which ended up to be anger)..angry tat my granny still cooked me curry even when she knew i was sick..but to me cant blame entirely on her..well, anyway, wat i dun get it here is tat: how come i was allowed to eat the fried fish yest n not the curry today??jus bcos it's my dad's wish then it's ok to eat?sigh..sometimes i think love is selfish..only allows wat the ppl u love to do ur way..oh ya..n so my dad's grumbling starts again..

scene 3:

main concern: to stuff all my things into the luggage

solution: help me pack

problem: well, i'm glad that my dad offer to pack for me..which is a rare thing..so i damn appreciate his help..until..trouble comes..well, this time, my parents are quarelling..over how to pack my bag..mum insists tat all shampoo, cleanser, toothpaste etc must b in plastic bags in case they spill..dad insists not to put in plastic bags as it takes up space(acc to him lar..to me i personally feel tat it's much more secure to b in the plastic bags..but noe-ing my dad, u never win him one..esp when u're suffering from sore throat)..so therefore, war happened n pass..i survived wif no injuries..how?well, i escape to upstairs n chat wif bro bout the war below..when i came back downstairs, voila! my bag is packed..n fyi, my dad won the battle (not surprising at all)..so my stuff are pack w/o the plastic bags..gonna repack my stuff tmr when he went to work..scared it really will spill..

well, i'm damn happy tat my family loves me so much..mind u, i'm not complainin..i'm damn grateful, althou some of u may misinterpret my intentions..i'm bloggin bout it cos i'm pretty amused at how silly one can b..esp when they are blinded by love..lol..

I LOVE MY FAMILY...A LOT..

hope no one notices me crying on tues..hehe..gonna bring lots of tissues..oh ya..did i mention my bro was damn sweet to me these days?n missed my sis A LOT..she was gone for a few hours n i missed her ad..dun get me wrong..i missed her cos she was my "free slave" at home..lol..

to all P1/04,

BON VOYAGE..N SEE U SOON..

oh ya..mum made me a lot of lovely stuff..cant wait to use them soon..lol..wont blog till i settled down in glasgow..take care ppl..

Are You Ready??

hmmm..are you ready to leave your home to a place so far away and so cold to further ut studies?i'm not prepared to leave yet..but my parents esp my mum are making lots of preparation to get me out of the house..lol..

anyway, while everyone is busy deciding whether to buy their winter clothing here o in scotland, most of my problem is solved..let's see..i ad got a sweater, a scarf, a pair of gloves..made by my mum..lol..as for winter clothings n stuff, i really shudnt worry much..cos i ad got two..mum bought me one when she went to melb last year..dad bought another when he went japan last year..sigh..seems like my parents are damn eager to get me out of the house..hehehe..anyway, i dunno y, but i'm damn happy n excited today..

probably is cos of my sis..she's going japan..lucky her..sigh..wished i could join her..if not for sem 6..sad sad..tmr's wesak day..very important day for me..hehehe

Happy Wesak Day!!

Lazy n Bored

i guess i'm jus not used to it..not used to the new-found freedom..fact is i'm bored to death..yet i'm still as lazy as ever..lazy to do anything..my clinical attachment notes are still lying somewhere in my room..i dun even noe where it is now..i haven even think of wat to bring to Strathclyde..haven even done my shopping..man..i cant go on like this..sigh..

was browsin thru google..(nowadays, google is my best fren..helpin me fight against boredom..)anyway, i found out another person's blog..nothin suprisin since nowadays most ppl blog..the thing is this person's name is same as mine..so ya..i found ai lian's blog..she's from s'pore n is four years younger than me..wonder how many more ppl is called ai lian..

btw, was watchin thomas cup semis yest..sigh..none of my frens from jb watch it..acc to them it's an old man's type of game..they prefer football..hmmm..i wonder if it's really a sports that only 'ah pek' watches..i definitely hope not..hopefully i'm not the only non-'ah pek' who's crazy in thomas cup..

sigh..malaysia lost..indonesia lost..left china..gonna watch the finals tmr..thank God there's astro..

tv is useless without astro..

Taking a Break

ppl..pls dun bother to email me anymore cos i'm going back kl tmr..wont b checkin my emails..besides tat on thurs (27/4/06) dun even bother to sms o call me..my phone will be off..i need a break..thanks..so see ya all on fri :)

Get Off My Back

attention to all P1/04 ppl who happenned to read this..pls read carefully the emails i send to u..dun come n kept asking the things again n again..if i noe about sth i'll sure email it to u..i'm not tat selfish to tat extent i will keep anything from u..if i dun email to u then i do not noe..i noe my emails can sometimes b v confusin as the facts kept changing everyday..every minute..like the case of the offer letter..but it's not my fault i myself do not noe tat much..if u think tat i did such a bad job then pls contact hira, imu etc urself..i quit..

i've been so bz answering all ur questions that my own application haf not been done at all..i haven got anything photostated n stuff..so pls..gif me a break..o do this urself..u are old enuff..n i ad gaf u all the necessary info..

I Need To Pass

I NEED TO PASS

I Pass

I PASS

SADNESS

How do you define sadness? How do you express it? Some do by crying out loud..Some by crying silently..Is sadness something that is felt by the heart?Is it express with or without tears? Or both? If sadness is something that is felt by the heart, how does it feel to be sad? To what extent can one be sad? If extreme sadness can cause loss of appetite and insomnia in some, why not in the others as well? If the same thing happens to you as it had happened to me, how will you feel? What will be your reaction? Will you breakdown like some, or will you watch as calmly as possible, not shedding a single tear, yet your heart felt as if it will stop that instant? Or will you be like me? Standing there, watching him, I thought of nothing, I felt nothing and I did nothing..No tears ran down my cheeks..It's as if I am totally detatched of the situation..It's as if I'm not there..Why is it that there's not a single trace of that wretched pain that I used to felt before? Is it because that I am not sad at all? is he that unimportant to me? Or perhaps I'm too sad for words that my heart went numb and my mind went blank? I don't know..Is there something wrong with me? Am I a cold and emotionless creature? It had happened before, six years ago..Six years ago I felt nothing as well..Will I feel the same as well in the future? Or will I be different then? Can anyone tell me what exactly is sadness? How do you know that you are sad? Am I feeling sad now?

~ Does it mean that if you cry you're weaker than the rest? Or is there more to it? Tears - a symbol of weakness or sadness? ~

Jus This Once..

jus this once i'm going to break my rules..my rules of not blogging till finals are over..actually not going to blog much now..

this entry is dedicated to my frens..all those still in vista..who have been helping me for so long..without u there's really no me..

first..need to thank my housemates n roommate..who has been busily helping me wif stuff..without u i dunno how i can manage to pass the notes to the class..i dunno how i'll noe which group i'm in..n i wont b able to change to the first week..without them my life now will be damn messy..

next..i need to thank my two neno frens..agnes n huey..hehehe..without them i wont haf survived till so long..would haf died of boredom long time ago..plus the endless usage of huey's internet access whenever i needed it.. not forgetting agnes' never ending entertainment..the only person in IMU who can talk till i drop..

last but not least..keli n lay..hehe..thanks to them i can haf free one nite stand whenever i wan :p

plus at keli there oso got internet access..hehehe..n thanks keli for getting my notes n explainin stuff i nv understood so patiently..

to all my frens..thanks for neno-ing wif me n tolerating me so far..not an easy job :)

lastly,

HAPPY 38 'FU NU JIE'

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Google Talk

for those who haf gmail account, u can now chat using google talk..it's also accessible in IMU..hehehe..still trying to explore the thing..for more info pls visit bear's blog..gtg now..haven had lunch..sigh..hungry~