New Template :)
i like my new template..kekekeke..jus tat there seem to b some prob wif the tabs..sigh..gg to solve it soon..n by soon i mean in 2 to 3 months time??kekekkeke..there are too many other things gg on right now so blog template problems do not realli top my list nw...
let me noe wat u think bout this new template..
Random Rantings..
it's at times like this i need to be reminded once again y i took this path..sigh..it's tough..but i do hope i can pull through this time..so much to learn..so little time left..mayb it's jus the hormones affecting my mood..definitely need a break after all this.......
pic stolen from fren in facebook...
What do You Think?
name : A
age : forties
gender : male
brief description :
was on dialysis for years..lost a limb..have been homeless for years..seen him roaming around the streets bfore..
name : B
age : seventies
gender : female
brief description :
visible arthritic fingers..nt sure she had the disease for how long..nt much is known about her..came to collect her medication on her own..
B was toking to A while i was preparing both their medication..overheard part of the conversation..most part bout their own family background..wat catches my attention was B said to A : i'm in a worst state than u..i more KELIAN than u, you know!!
it makes me think..is old age plagued wif severe arthritis realli worst than dialysis??both appeared to b alone wif no family members..hmmm..so, wat do u think??i do hope i dun fall into either of the category as mentioned above..
sth fr the weekend to think about..
Dali's Adam and Eve..
currently my fav..hmmm..nv tot i would one day like sth from Dali..but i realli like the way he depict the whole adam n eve thing..i think this pic doesnt do the sculpture any justice..couldnt find any tat does the piece any justice online..i think u nd to view it personally bfore u can appreciate this piece..the exhibition ends in oct 2011..so if u r interested, u may consider dropping by the art n science museum, singapore..the Dali exhibition is nt for the faint hearted..plenty of nudity and sadism theme on display..nt sure why they chose those as i believe he has more other themes available....
was very disappointed wif the van gogh exhibition..mayb tat's y i find Dali's so appealing..sigh..nt worth seeing, the van gogh one..or mayb i set my expectations too high..i feel i m much better off spending the noon reading the van gogh book agnes gaf me years ago..
nyway, spotted some mistakes in the exhibitions..kekeke..wonder if anyone else notice them too..or is it jus me..kekeke..my sis says i m jobless :p
Study...
sigh..it's realli hard to concentrate n study..too much distractions around..cant seemed to concentrate..need to reread each sentence at least thrice..is it realli tat hard to study at this age??or is it bcos i had lost touch wif most of my basics..sigh..dun think it's the language problem cos i can understand journals fine..jus the super text i m supposed to study tat's looking super tough nw..
Random
jus browse thru my posts..saw this under "The Tag".. think i was quite creative back thn dun u think??wakakaka..n it's still true even after all these years..wat can i say..the leopard nv changes its spots?wakakakaka..mayb i m jus too comfortable being myself..abit too comfortable ;p
I love to look at the clouds on sunny days under a tree bcos it makes me feel calm n peaceful. I hate to be alone but I hide myself most of the time in my room. I get emotional quite often even if it’s not PMS. That’s when I need space n understanding from ppl ard me which is hard n all..
wonder when i can look at clouds on sunny days again..these few days it has been too sunny..tat i hardly see clouds hanging ard..either that or it's too cloudy until u cant see the sky..
Goodnight, Beautiful..
i think i stopped blogging ever since i stopped reading..slowly but surely after my return from glasgow, after i was hooked wif fb games, i stopped wat was previously my passion..
recently started reading again..i think it's cos i finally realise hw empty my life had been..fr the past 3 years o so..revolving wif work n fb..nothing more..only recently i had willed myself out of the daily routine..to pursue wat i used to believe in..to live once again..
as expected, it wasnt easy..it nv meant to b..tat probably explain y i left my ambitions, my dreams aside..drowning myself wif fb games..it still wasnt easy..but i m glad i pass the first obstacle..took the first step forward..nw, the real test begin..i m starting to slack back to my own self again..whether i succeed this time, it doesnt matter..cos i noe i m gg to try till i succeed..
forgot totally bout this place..even though i promised apple to revive it last year..time realli flies..it's almost a year nw..forgot about its existence totally..until yesterday..i found out kimi was spamming my blog..kekeke..she was reading my posts..each n every one of them..the stories tat i wrote during tat year..tat jot down the good n bad..n the unforgettable..read back a few of them..definitely brings back memories..n reminded me hw forgetful i had bcome..
n hw monotonous my life had been..it was all colourful back then..nw, it is worst than a black n white picture..i am living yet dead inside..sigh..so i guess i did sth meaningful today..left my laptop on like i used to back in glasgow..sat in my bed n read..
which brings me back to the title of this post..tat's the title of the book i read today..by Dorothy Koomson..had heard of her fr ages..bought tat book together wif her other book ages ago..nv set myself to read it..cried alot..cos the story was realli heart wrenching..tot it was like any other books i had read..books bout love etc..books tat are categorised as chic lit..books tat goes together wif cecilia ahern's ps; i love u, alexander potter's be careful wat u wish for..but this was nt any other book..at least it was nt to me..it taught me tat once the chance has pass it will nv come again..once u missed it, things will nv b the same again..hopefully things will start to look well from nw on..n hopefully i wont go back into my undead self again..i nd to find a purpose in life......
wonder who if anyone drops by here anymore..if u happen to read this, pls bear wif me..i m still coming to terms wif the now me..haven used english for ages..gt so much more to share..but cant...i finally understands y some ppl find it hard to express themselves..nt cos they are introvert o wat..jus tat they cant find the right words to do so..
It's Time..
it's time to move on..
think i have been living in the past fr way toooo long..realli hate it whn ppl dun mean wat they say..realli tired n sick of the disappointment each time i was ffk..getting kinda frus each time i nd to postpone my stuffs, my plans..jus bcos u said so..jus bcos u say u cant make it etc..
i realised i dun haf much time to waste on u anymore..i'm almost reaching quarter of a century..nt sure hw many more quarters i haf..so i guess the best way is to move on..
i m nt well-known fr my patience..yet it surprises me hw much i endure over the year(s)..u said ur circumstances are diff from me..wat i see is ur reluctance to make the effort..
it's time to go out, meet new ppl, doing new stuffs n start a brand new chapter in my life.....
Back From Penang..
Back from Penang..it was an adventurous trip..kekeke..haven had so much fun since 2006..kekeke..arriving at a new place, its ppl speaking diff language from me (diff dialect actually), making new frens etc..meeting wif old mates n catching up..brings back the UK memories..din bring camera..so no pics..unless i go nick dylan's pics from fb...
oh ya..been busy lately..i noe it's a bad excuse fr nt blogging fr months..kekeke..wat to do..laziness kicks in..nt forgetting my current addiction to fb games..sigh..i seriously nd a life..
connection is damn bad now..shall post the pics some other day :) nite~
Thomas Cup
2pm, stadium putra..hopefully it will turn out to b sth like this...
wakakakakaka..better get ready for the match..kekeke..
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wakakakakaka..better get ready for the match..kekeke..
RAndomness..
havent blog for ages..gt super addicted wif facebook games..till relatives started to complain me flooding their pages wif games..
nothing much happened lately..went to kl in april for mini gathering wif dylan n kimi..gg to meet up agnes in june..hoping i wont get broke in june..still waiting for apple to come n meet me..hmmm..wat else..uni gg to haf alumni AGM in 21st may..still nt sure wanna go o not..cos will b working on 22nd..
haven seen anyone for ages..cos haven been on any courses this year..jus went to my first talk of the year today..saw some old frens..will b seeing more old frens on mon n tues cos will b gg for ebm talk..hope it's nt too boring..
nt sure if anyone is still reading this blog..i noe apple checks this place once in awhile..but nt sure if she still does..issit jus me o everyone is having this prob?when i open this blog i jus found out all my pictures are all gone..
nyway, hope my cough, flu, fever, everything goes away by tmr..abit sien ad..oh ya, thomas cup starting tmr :) hopefully can see taufik plays..nt sure if he's in the indo team o not tho..
Bolus or Infusion?
IV Ceftriaxone - to give bolus or infusion?
most reference said to gif infusion over 30 mins..BNF says may gif slow iv administration over at least 2-4 minutes..
wat if it was given as a bolus injection?wat will happen?can't find anything on the net..sigh........
Jus a Thought...
You were on your way out of the ward after your rounds..jus then, a figure caught ur eye..he was sitting cross-legged with his back hunched forward..you walk towards him and realised he was one of your patient who was discharged a few days ago..you exchanged a few words with him and his daughter..he looked breathless but other than that, he was fine..assuring him and his daughter that he will be fine, you headed home for the weekend..
when you were doing your rounds on the following week, another man was in the patient's place instead..browsing through the registry, you realised his name was no longer in it..thinking he might have been discharged during the weekend, you continued the rounds..as you were exiting the ward, you heard one of the staff nurse talked about that patient..you stopped by and asked her about it..
it seems that the patient passed away earlier on Sunday..he was actually doing quite fine one Saturday and Sunday morning..he was able to walk around the ward and talk for hours without the help of oxygen mask..the doctors and staff nurses were sure that he could be discharged soon..on Sunday night, he was suddenly breathless again..the medical team tried their best..he passed away soon after his attack..
prior to his attack, he was chatting to this staff nurse..he told her that he has lost all strength and hope to live on..it saddens him each time he was warded as he sees his family members took turns to take care of him..he feels like a burden to his family..minutes after this chat, he had the fatal attack..
you were sadden by this news..just moments ago you rejoiced thinking he got better and was discharged..it seems as though it was only yesterday you saw him the first time in the ward..it seems as though it was only yesterday you taught him the correct technique of using his inhalers..it seems as though it was only yesterday you stopped by his bed to chat to him and his family members..and now he is gone..
at least throughout his stay here his family members took turn to take care of him..they took turns to visit him..the other patient at the neighbouring ward wasn't so lucky..she was one of the regulars in this hospital..and each admission would take weeks, even months..never once have you seen her family members..she was abandoned by her family to a nursing home in the area..each time it was the nursing home who admitted her..and now, the nursing home is abandoning her in the hospital..it seems that her family has stopped paying the nursing home..
Life is short..treasure those around you..
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