Wat Happen?

sigh..melanie told me tag board now no problem ad..but i still haf problem wif it..still can access to blogs using it..but acc to elyne, keli n mel, they can..is there sth wrong wif my laptop?o my browser?o wat??whenever i try to open any site related to tag board my browser will hang..sigh..damn irritatin..someone, help!!

Holiday Mood..

hehehe..feel like as if i'm on holiday..dread to think bout the class test on monday..anyway, did this the whole noon..jus finish..think it looks nice..

Alone..

sigh..i think i really shud change..n stop being so neno..stop doing things tat ppl din ask me to..so i can stop hurtin myself..today was really a very bad day for me..never felt so idiot in my life..giving out so much..yet the other party will never noe..even if she noes, she might not appreciate it..

think i shud start being selfish n stop doing silly things for others..stop thinkin bout others..wat's the point anyway..i'm gettin hurt anyway..i shud haf jus care bout myself n tat's it..cos ppl nv appreciate a good deed..initially they might..soon, they take it for granted..

strange how this may sound..i am always surrounded by ppl..yet, i'm always alone..mayb i'm jus to hard to get along..watever..i'll jus haf to get myself used to this..n stop wastin my time n feelings on other ppl..

wonder if tmr will b better..

Wat The Hell!!

to anyone who's readin this..i tot it's ad a common sense that u shudnt wake/disturb anyone who's sleeping..unless it's very very urgent..n if u happen to wake someone else, pls b apologetic bout it..dun gif me the neno look when i ask u if u noe i'm sleeping..say u r sorry o sth like tat..at least i wont get tat angry wif ya..n quickly finish wat u wan from me so i can get back to sleep..do NOT obstruct me from my sleep..for those of u who dunno, i value my sleep more than my life..and unfortunately, i do not value mos frenship more than my sleep..so i dun care who u are..best to leave me alone while i'm sleepin..unless i told u to wake me up at a specific time..n in this case if i got angry, jus slap me..

note: even my family leave me alone when i'm sleepin unless necessary..if u think u haf a good reason to wake me up, pls clarify..dun jus wake me up w/o any reason..sleepy ppl r most blur..so unless u state it, i dunno wat the hell u wan from me..

DO NOT DISTURB ME WHILE I'M SLEEPIN..

Another Boring Day...

was reading other ppl's blog..saw sth interesting in elyne's blog..was sth tat i wanted to write about for long time but can nv express it in words..

today damn a lot of ambulance..more than ten passed by my place ad..wat's wrong??i hope nothin serious is going on..gtg for now..got another 100pages to cover..sigh..oh, if u happen to b visitin elyne's blog, do read bout our neno housemate as well..think it was well written..i hate Henry..his eternal smile infuriates me..sigh..but i still haf to put up wif him..his smile is so damn fake..n kinda like gloatin at us..sigh...

damn pissed of at myself today..damn clumsy..n brainless..spill the whole packet of mee on the floor..wonder if it's still edible..i picked the top ones n kept it..most, was thrown away..wasting..sigh..wat to do..i'm bcomin more n more brainless n useles..

Caring?

was too bored..so went tickle.com n did the quiz..n got the below results..

Your caring nature is earning you the most karma!

You seem to be one of those people who has an uncanny ability to anticipate and meet the needs of others around you. This nurturing quality has helped you earn your karma up to this point. Your thoughtfulness strengthens your current relationships, and suggests that such kindnesses will be repaid to you some time in the future. Through your concerted efforts to express how much you care, you generate good karma for yourself and the universe.

caring?hehe..i'm not so sure bout tat..they make me sound like a saint..which i'm obviously not.."Your thoughtfulness strengthens your current relationships, and suggests that such kindnesses will be repaid to you some time in the future." perhaps i'm being a bit pessimistic here..but from most of my experiences, kindness n caring doesnt pay much these days..mayb i'm jus tired of being myself..tired of helpin ppl..used to think tat if ppl needs help n i can help then i'll help..now, i'll b thinkin if i can do this by myself why cant u?selfish huh?guess as i grow older the more selfish i bcome..n i always tot the older one gets the more selfless one will be..strange how things turn out to be..sigh..used to love pink..but somehow now i hate tat colour..not those sweet light pink..but those neno pink(cant find the colour..not fluorescence pink..)..guessed it's normal gua..even if it's other colours if i haf to see it everyday n stuff, sooner o later i'll be sick of it..like how i'm feelin it nw..let's jus hope i'll change for the better..

lol..was supposed to post bout other stuffs first..but jus tat sudd feel like bloggin bout this first..

I'm So PROUD of Myself!!

hehe..i'm very very proud n pleased wif myself..for once..hehe..as u can see i've changed the blog skin..not bcos i dun like the old one..i like the old one..jus tat wanna change a bit..n somehow, this skin kinda suits my mood now..dunno how long this skin will last cos i intend to put the old skin back..depends on how the reactions are to this new skin..even now i've comments tat they cant find the buttons to click in..hmm..intend to put back the old skin..bcos it's done by someone dear to me..still is..tat's y i retain the song..even though i think it doesnt really suit this skin..does it?dunno..need comments on this..

i spent like 3 to 4 hours to make this thing work..damn neno i noe..sigh..wat to do..damn idiot in this..got to go now..going to george square..may blog later..depends on mood..

Hercules in Glasgow...

they say a picture is worth a thousand words..so i guess i shudnt say more..u'll understand when u see the pictures ..

before

after

Less Less Less..

i've decided..from today onwards, i'll cook lesser rice..lesser dishes..lesser portions..i've been worrying too much..too worried tat i starve my housemates..today only i realised i always cook too much..till they cant finish..haf to change this habit of mine fast..probably should cook faster too..since most of them are partially full when i'm done..due to the food they store in their rooms..wonder wat happened to the excess soup..perhaps not going to boil any soup in future..

FMT Class Tests..

din wanna post anythin one..basically jus plain lazy n nothing to tok bout..but since i ad log in to change a few things on my blog n i cant sleep, i guess i'll jus update my life no matter how meaningless it seems..

hehe..if someone sees this he/she might neno me for it..cos life's nv meaningless..but meaningless to me as in there's nothin much to write about..things are certainly gettin mundane here..when it wasnt, i was jus too lazy to blog..

for those back at home, i've got public holidays on 14th n 17th..why?i have no idea..hehe..anyone who noes let me noe k?it may seem to b a great opportunity to go travel ard glasgow..too bad..everythin happens for a reason..i've to stay at home n eat my two thick FMT books..even after eatin them i still dun understand the stuffs..useles..my FMT class tests are on 18th n 20th respectively..all together i've got ard 500 pages to eat..the good news is..it's multiple choice questions..for someone lack of ambitions like me, a pass will b good enuff..n if i'm lucky enuff, i probably will get 60 over for both class tests..but experience taught me not to expect too high..then u wont get hurt tat much..bsides if u score higher than expected u'll b over the moon..a perfect way to deceive urself..i've totally mastered it..very easy to achieve too..jus sleep ur troubles away..

it doesnt matter if u dun understand this entry..i myself haf difficulty in understandin it..reason y is cos i'm writin this w/o a clear mind..woke up two hour ago..but still feel tat part of me is sleepin..dun ask me bout this either cos i'll forget 90% of this after my sleep..usually does..wonder how am i going to pass my tests n how i've managed to pass them..since i normally forget 90% of the stuff..

ok..enuff of neno-ing..wanna go back to sleep now..shud haf gone back to sleep one hour ago..tmr got to start study..sigh..tak ada mood langsung..part of me hope tat the class test will b postphone..part of me dun..in the end i decided tat i'll jus let nature takes its course..while i watch the world from my dreamland..

GOOD LUCK PPL..FOR FMT CLASS TEST..

PS:i jus change my chatter box to tag board..spent like more than an hour to choose the colour to match my blog..dunno whether it suits o not..let me noe wat u think ok?thanks..nite ppl...

I'm Not ME

it may be removed..but let this b a reminder..i'm no longer the Ai Lian tat P1/04 knew..

I've Been Dreamin for Too Long....

i've been dreamin for too long..until my eyes are clouded..until i cant tell wat is reality n wat is fantasy..sigh..

n only now i've realised how unfair this world is..how unfair ppl tend to judge u..how unfair each person is treated..today, i feel tat i've been judged n treated unfairly..today, is also the day where other ppl at other parts of the world who are judged n treated more unfairly than me..n yet, i haf always tot that this world is fair..that humans are blessed wif eyes..eyes tat were given for us to see..to see the diff bet right n wrong..yet, some of us are too blinded..for once i'm loss..am i doing the right thing??i guess i've been sleeping too much..way too much..i can feel the "old" me creeping back..is this a good thing?i dunno...

wat i do noe is tat i've tried my entire life to control the "old" me..to control it so that i might bcome a better person..yet, i think i'm fightin a losing battle..n i dun care anymore..i'm tired..seriously tired..tired of thinkin..tired of being judged unfairly every time..tired of everythin..

total equality may come one day..it may not..i used to think tat it's possible to haf equal treatment, equal judgement..as long as we humans try..now, i think i've been sleeping n dreamin for too long..

i feel like shoutin..but i cant..i feel like cryin..but i cant..mayb i should jus go back to sleep..n nv wakes up..to those who had judge me before..dun b too eager to judge ppl next time..u r not God..hence, dun judge ppl..

i'm sick of everythin...i've never felt like saying fuck u so much in my life.........bcos today i lost my freedom..

Bed Bugs!!

sigh..i really think village office should jus move us to thomas campbell court..the bed bugs in james blyth court is spreadin..and damn fast too..now i dun dare to open my windows cos acc to some ppl the bed bugs flew into their room..although i cant imagine how..sigh..i still worried they can creep in thru holes in the unit..

I wanna move!!

i dun think it's possible though..cos i heard those who are ad affected are moved to j flat temporarily..sigh...

btw, i cut my hair..hehehe..not really used to it..but i think it looks damn nice..my hairstylist is tze yan..thanks for the hair cut, tze yan!!

Masterpiece

i finally got the molecular formula right..lol..

For My Sis

at the botanical garden..

me n elyne

blur

dunno the name of the flowers..but nice..

can u spot the bee?

his name is jeff

Japanese?

my batch mates are in bbc news..this pic was taken on 10th june on the west end festival in glasgow..one of the staff in strathclyde saw it..n told keli who in turn told my housemates..u can get the pic at bbc news

tat's all for now..too many stuff happen over the weekend..lazy to blog..oh ya..i think my photography skills improve a lot..hehehe..took many pics on the weekends..but i love the one below the most..cos it's a lady bird!!

My First Cookin in Glasgow

pasta in mayonise, light soya sauce, chicken ham, egg n mushroom..too much pasta added..so cant really see the other ingredients..

vege for the day..no idea wat it is called in english..

tat's all for dinner..looks miserable..

my first cookin in glasgow..was on 13th june..today (16th june) supposed to cook as well..but in the end din..so i guess on mon i got to cook..

think i got to sleep now ad..tmr got to get up early n go for city tour..

My Add n More

oh ya..forgot to include my address..n some pics..

Block H Flat 9-1,
James Blyth Court,
57, Rottenrow East,
Glasgow G4 0NG.

i dun think i'm giving my phone number..cos it's a land line n i'll be in uni most of the times..wat to do..9-5 classes..mon-fri..n i think it's much much cheaper if i call u..hehehe..which is kinda rare lar..will let u noe if i got a mobile..not so soon though..

my bed..love it..looks so much like candy..lol

the view outside my window..daytime..

the view outside my window..at nite..

my lovely student id..lol..love it lots..much much nicer than imu's..

huey and her spagetti..our first meal here..

agnes wif hers..

mine..

finished in a meal..sorry elyne!!

my left ear..

my right ear..

guess wat they are doin..

at the subway..oso known as the "tube"..i think..on my way to hillhead for the carnival..

ok..got to stop here..too many pics to upload..not tat the connection here sux..in fact it's much much faster than at home..i'm jus tired..wanna sleep ad..nite ppl..oh ya..the time diff here in summer is 7 hours..from m'sia..

btw..my chatter box has prob..can anyone not in strathclyde see the chatterbox??anyone noe how to get a new one??cos my last one is not done by me..lol..thanks a lot!!

Glasgow

i'm way behind in writing blog if i were to compare to other ppl..hehehe..anyway, i reached glasgow safe n sound..n i'm love this place so much i really really dun wanna go back..mayb it's for summer only..who noes by the time winter comes i'm dying to go back..

i think on the whole my mind sort of receive this new environment wif open arms..my body however, is another story..had rashes yest..started from my feet..then it moves up..until it covers my whole body..took a pic of it..not very clear though..had to go to jasmine's place to borrow shorts..cos i din haf any..i really tot glasgow is like north pole..cold cold cold..to my surprise it was hot hot hot..thank God now it's getting colder..hehehe..which is bad news..cos i'm getting sleepier..

today, i had this really pain stomach ache (hmm..this sentence sounds so strange..)..was fine in the mornin but during the noon, the pain started..till it was so bad that i can hardly stand..n for those who noes how glasgow is like (ur only transport is walk..walk..n more walk..) might noe how i felt..so i left the lab session in noon early..i think hardly anyone except those who noe notice my disappearance..cos everyone is busy wif their stuff..anyway, now i'm feeling much better..although still a bit pain..

i'm the only one in the class i blieve who had been to the townhead health centre (it's a hospital i think) thrice within a week..n i certainly hope i wont b going there any more..after my appointment on 27th tat is..

well, my impressions bout glasgow (not so good ones) are basically tired tired tired..walk walk walk..hills hills hills..busy busy busy..hot hot hot (although now it's not quite true)..n finally, expensive expensive expensive..hmm..i find tat even though some stuffs are really expensive, there are some which are really cheap..erm, i think it's only applicable to gals..cos so far all those tat i find cheap are those for gals..hehehe..

good impressions will be the weather (i'm kinda contradicting myself..i noe)..the ppl (all tat i've met so far are polite n frenly..although some were quite unfrenly but still tolerable..i've heard some extreme cases though..like wen wei's hat was snatch while walking..also not forgettin jasper's room was bombarded wif stones by the local..the reason? i've no idea at all..they are prob all drunk o half way..cos i've seen them at their fav spot..rite outside my window..)..so except for the few cases, i felt that generally the ppl here are much much better than in malaysia..n ard here, it's fairly safe..cos back in malaysia i always haf to worry bout snatch thief n stuff..but i guess ard here ppl dun snatch ur stuff..they "pick" ur stuff..hence the word pick pockets..

i'm still trying to get use to the scottish slang which varies among the ppl here..some has a much diff to understand slang some are generally ok..wasnt really used to their coins as well..except one pound which is fairly easy to recognise..but i guess i'm getting used to it..

oh ya..i wonder was it the cold o the walkings..cos i tend to eat more here..a lot more..sigh..hope i wont get fat..i dun think i will wif all the walkin..lol..

went to the west side of glasgow on sunday for a carnival..sat the "tube"..which cost me 2 pounds..sigh..kinda "xin tong"..anyway, i really regret not explorin the place more during the carnival..esp after seeing acrix's photo n heard bout other ppl's experiences..sigh..no point regrettin now i guess..also regret not transferin my photos n videos to my laptop bfore the carnival..cos i only manage to take two photos of the carnival n my memory card was full..to think i even brought along an extra batt jus in case..sigh..so i'm going to get the pics from acrix soon..i hope..

glasgow is nv boring..there's always activities here..forget bout world cup..yest, sth interesting n funny happen..always makes me laugh when i think back..for more details, pls visit here..but i'm sure most P1/04 blogs will haf sth on it..for accurate details of the whole incident, pls ask the main character himself..cos i'm not so sure bout the details..only noe wat happen roughly..kinda "kesian" him..cos he had to pay 100 pounds for that little "prank" he played..

oh ya..i'm currently broke cos i paid like 90 pounds for five books..three of which are photostated copies..n i had not bank in my bank draft yet..sigh..so basically i'm "eating air" nowadays..which explains y i had a tummy upset today..

had pp3 lab officially today..enjoyed it to the max..how fun if there wasnt any stress attached..noe-ing tat no marks is gonna go into ur assessment..too bad that's not the case..jus hope i pass my pp3..

my hands still reeks of garlic..even after 24 hours..sigh..next time i cook i'm not going to use garlic..think i got to stop now..haf to sleep o else tmr i'm going to doze off again..like tues..slept in front of dr gray..hope i din left out anythin cos a lot had happened within these few days..

Sick..Really Sick..

ok..so tat was not the last entry bfore i leave for glasgow..sigh..dunno y sudd got so many things to write..but this one will b damn short..

sigh..first, it's sore throat..then flu..then cough..now, diarrheoa...sigh..hope will b ok by tues..

I WANNA GET WELL SOON..