Are You Ready??

hmmm..are you ready to leave your home to a place so far away and so cold to further ut studies?i'm not prepared to leave yet..but my parents esp my mum are making lots of preparation to get me out of the house..lol..

anyway, while everyone is busy deciding whether to buy their winter clothing here o in scotland, most of my problem is solved..let's see..i ad got a sweater, a scarf, a pair of gloves..made by my mum..lol..as for winter clothings n stuff, i really shudnt worry much..cos i ad got two..mum bought me one when she went to melb last year..dad bought another when he went japan last year..sigh..seems like my parents are damn eager to get me out of the house..hehehe..anyway, i dunno y, but i'm damn happy n excited today..

probably is cos of my sis..she's going japan..lucky her..sigh..wished i could join her..if not for sem 6..sad sad..tmr's wesak day..very important day for me..hehehe

Happy Wesak Day!!

Lazy n Bored

i guess i'm jus not used to it..not used to the new-found freedom..fact is i'm bored to death..yet i'm still as lazy as ever..lazy to do anything..my clinical attachment notes are still lying somewhere in my room..i dun even noe where it is now..i haven even think of wat to bring to Strathclyde..haven even done my shopping..man..i cant go on like this..sigh..

was browsin thru google..(nowadays, google is my best fren..helpin me fight against boredom..)anyway, i found out another person's blog..nothin suprisin since nowadays most ppl blog..the thing is this person's name is same as mine..so ya..i found ai lian's blog..she's from s'pore n is four years younger than me..wonder how many more ppl is called ai lian..

btw, was watchin thomas cup semis yest..sigh..none of my frens from jb watch it..acc to them it's an old man's type of game..they prefer football..hmmm..i wonder if it's really a sports that only 'ah pek' watches..i definitely hope not..hopefully i'm not the only non-'ah pek' who's crazy in thomas cup..

sigh..malaysia lost..indonesia lost..left china..gonna watch the finals tmr..thank God there's astro..

tv is useless without astro..

Taking a Break

ppl..pls dun bother to email me anymore cos i'm going back kl tmr..wont b checkin my emails..besides tat on thurs (27/4/06) dun even bother to sms o call me..my phone will be off..i need a break..thanks..so see ya all on fri :)

Get Off My Back

attention to all P1/04 ppl who happenned to read this..pls read carefully the emails i send to u..dun come n kept asking the things again n again..if i noe about sth i'll sure email it to u..i'm not tat selfish to tat extent i will keep anything from u..if i dun email to u then i do not noe..i noe my emails can sometimes b v confusin as the facts kept changing everyday..every minute..like the case of the offer letter..but it's not my fault i myself do not noe tat much..if u think tat i did such a bad job then pls contact hira, imu etc urself..i quit..

i've been so bz answering all ur questions that my own application haf not been done at all..i haven got anything photostated n stuff..so pls..gif me a break..o do this urself..u are old enuff..n i ad gaf u all the necessary info..

I Need To Pass

I NEED TO PASS

I Pass

I PASS

SADNESS

How do you define sadness? How do you express it? Some do by crying out loud..Some by crying silently..Is sadness something that is felt by the heart?Is it express with or without tears? Or both? If sadness is something that is felt by the heart, how does it feel to be sad? To what extent can one be sad? If extreme sadness can cause loss of appetite and insomnia in some, why not in the others as well? If the same thing happens to you as it had happened to me, how will you feel? What will be your reaction? Will you breakdown like some, or will you watch as calmly as possible, not shedding a single tear, yet your heart felt as if it will stop that instant? Or will you be like me? Standing there, watching him, I thought of nothing, I felt nothing and I did nothing..No tears ran down my cheeks..It's as if I am totally detatched of the situation..It's as if I'm not there..Why is it that there's not a single trace of that wretched pain that I used to felt before? Is it because that I am not sad at all? is he that unimportant to me? Or perhaps I'm too sad for words that my heart went numb and my mind went blank? I don't know..Is there something wrong with me? Am I a cold and emotionless creature? It had happened before, six years ago..Six years ago I felt nothing as well..Will I feel the same as well in the future? Or will I be different then? Can anyone tell me what exactly is sadness? How do you know that you are sad? Am I feeling sad now?

~ Does it mean that if you cry you're weaker than the rest? Or is there more to it? Tears - a symbol of weakness or sadness? ~

Jus This Once..

jus this once i'm going to break my rules..my rules of not blogging till finals are over..actually not going to blog much now..

this entry is dedicated to my frens..all those still in vista..who have been helping me for so long..without u there's really no me..

first..need to thank my housemates n roommate..who has been busily helping me wif stuff..without u i dunno how i can manage to pass the notes to the class..i dunno how i'll noe which group i'm in..n i wont b able to change to the first week..without them my life now will be damn messy..

next..i need to thank my two neno frens..agnes n huey..hehehe..without them i wont haf survived till so long..would haf died of boredom long time ago..plus the endless usage of huey's internet access whenever i needed it.. not forgetting agnes' never ending entertainment..the only person in IMU who can talk till i drop..

last but not least..keli n lay..hehe..thanks to them i can haf free one nite stand whenever i wan :p

plus at keli there oso got internet access..hehehe..n thanks keli for getting my notes n explainin stuff i nv understood so patiently..

to all my frens..thanks for neno-ing wif me n tolerating me so far..not an easy job :)

lastly,

HAPPY 38 'FU NU JIE'

Pink Panther

PINK PANTHER

MUST WATCH...

Google Talk

for those who haf gmail account, u can now chat using google talk..it's also accessible in IMU..hehehe..still trying to explore the thing..for more info pls visit bear's blog..gtg now..haven had lunch..sigh..hungry~

Finally....

sigh..guess it's been a long long time since i blog..i even forgotten my pwd..hmmm..i'm finally back at home..so i finally have internet access..my uni does provides internet access..but it's for patient ppl only..for those short temper ppl like me who dun mind trashing the computers if they dun do wat u want, really haf to restrain from using those in the uni..

too many things happen in between ad..hmm, n i'm too lazy n tired to write out all..so will jus point out few main points..

finally watched geisha..watched it las year wid lynn, bear n yan..finally finish dd3 report..which has been bugging me for days..rob me of my precious sleep..finally got my hair dyed..even at the risk of facing the music..prob ws due to the dd3 stress..finally finish reading bear's time traveller's wife..and also quite a number of books..enjoyed them all..how i wished i could jus relax n read every single day till i finish every single book there is to read..finally bear had moved in..and for her i sacrificed my sleep..sigh..uncle chow mus b missing me now..

finally went to the cinemas..first time this year..finally went to watch oliver twist n pride n prejudice..nice movies..hehehe..the sound system in midvalley din really do oliver twist any justice..perhaps if they got better systems i would enjoy the movie more..nevertheless, the movie was great..pride n prejudice really makes me wanna read the original book..prob becos there's kinda plenty of loopholes in bet..as if there's no flow in them..hehehe..perhaps it's jus me..

finally went to watch fearless..wif whole family..very strange thing to do..i mus say jet li is damn great..to b able to attract ppl like my parents to once again step their foot in the cinemas..hmm..overall the movie was great..many hidden values..hehehe..the action part..hmmm..wasnt really tat great..i love the moves..no doubt bout tat but i'm not sure it's bcos of the editing o wat the fights did not go as smoothly as it shud be..perhaps it's jus me again..

finally realise n ready to admit that my english is going down hill..thanks to prof yeoh..hehehe..sigh..so i shall not torture u anymore by forcing u to read this half-past six english..

finally..this entry will end here.........................

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL!!

The Pics

bday gal n pressie

bday gal

all of us

this is only part of the photo we took yest..lazy to post lar..hehehe..oh ya..who think tat ms lai elyne should make full use of her pressie (that tiny black bag) pls tag either me o her..hehehe..

Busy Week

well..this week was pretty busy for me..

hmm..let's start from last fri which is the 6/1/06..many things happened tat day..my granduncle was hospitalised on monday (2/1/06)..and being the antisocial person i've become, i jus found out bout it on fri..sigh..he jus had a surgery so was pretty weak..was there for less than half an hour bfore he chased us home..hehehe..

on saturday (7/1/06), more shocking news..sigh i forgot pretty much wat i did on tat day..lazing ard as usual i guess..

then on sunday (8/1/06), waited whole day for sophia to reach..oh ya..got an sms from qi at ard 3 am..was pretty blur tat time..tot was sophia who sms-ed me..anyway, i fell asleep while waiting for sophia to contact me..hmmm..then got her back safe n sound to my place n we chat then after she showered we went times square to meet qi..more shocking news were exchanged..sigh..i really wonder if i can take it anymore..three equally shocking news on three days straight..then after dinner we went back..plan to go taiping on mon after class..we tok till God noes wat time bfore i finally decided to sleep..

on monday (9/1/06), i prayed like hell for classes to end super early so i can catch the bus..sigh..well, the lectures did end early but things are not as planned..after another shocking news and some 'fight', i begin my journey to taiping..my mood tat day was super low..sigh..partly was because of my super low pp2 marks..i'm hopeless i guess..well, anyway after dinner my spirits began to pick up..hehehe..had the best fried oyster i had ever tasted..missing it deeply..then we went back to qi's place n chat till kinda late..discovered tat the Australian Pharmacy course is much much more intense than us..i wonder why??this kinda makes me more sad..

anyway, slept till ard 10 am the next day..after my breakfast, qi's mum fetch me to the bus station n off i go..sleep throughout the whole journey..was damn jam in kl so i got off the bus at ard hang tuah lrt station there..reach vista at ard 4.30pm..at six went to nite market wif huey, nes n bear..then played mahjong till ard 12am..slept at ard 2am..sick n tired..happy though..cos my granduncle was discharged (a day earlier than expected)..

on wed (11/1/06), i was so damn sick tat even after wearing one long sleeve shirt n two jacket, i can still feel the cold piercing to my bones..plan to skip class to see doc but thank God dr soh finishes his class early as usual..then in the end i still din see doc..cos stephanie gaf me medicine ad..man, she's really good..hehehe..can be a doc ad..thanks to her i'm ok now..at ard 12pm, i left wif sophia to pyramid to meet tai ka jie..hmm..act plan to go sg wang too..but i guess the medicine cause drowsiness..cos an hour later i felt damn sleepy..went home after lunch straight..n then i literally sink into my bed like a dead corpse..sleep was peaceful except the call from bear..then ard evening, sophia came n took her stuff..

on thurs (12/1/06), i was still tired after all those tat happened..but since during the weekends, many of us went back so we cant celeb for our ms bear's 21st bday..in the end we decided to celeb it today..ms bear, u better b grateful for this..i sacrificed my beauty sleep to make tat card for u..n mind u, the words are mine..sigh..was kinda sad when u tot that i copied it out from somewhere..but i guess tat proves how good my english is..hehehehe..anyway, i hope u like ur gift..dun think is much of a surprise cos we literally plan everythin in front of u

fri..which is today..sigh..friday the 13th..black friday..well, woke up damn early acc to my standards for the PP briefing..sigh..in my state of semi awake, i was wondering over sth..whether it's sth tat happened o it's jus my dream..hmm..soon figured out it was a dream (thank God)..cos i dreamt of my granduncle hospitalised again..sth got to do wif the wound reopening o wat..not sure the details..but the situation is kinda serious..was informed by my mum thru phone..how i noe it's a dream?cos i always off my hp when i sleep..so tat i can haf continous sleep throughout the nite..guess tat's all for now..my whole body is craving for my bed..

Infectious Disease

Description : Highly contagious..Little is known bout the disease..Once u haf it, it'll stick with u for life..

Symptoms : Cant get enuff sleep constantly..sleepy all the time..lethargic..

Treatment : None..except to sleep to relieve the symptoms..

Cause : Unknown

Pathology : Unknown

Name of Disease : Penyakit Lee Ai Lian

hehehe..lately my poor room mate got 'sick'..seems tat my disease had spread to her..hope she recovers soon..or else i'll mos prob b late for class each day..sigh..

damn happy yest..bought my fav type of pants..bought three to be exact..all same pattern but diff colour..a bit siao..then bought a bikini..dunno for wat oso..but man, i look damn good in it..hehehe..plan to study one but kinda got lazy after the first day..but sophia's sake i guess i'll have to study hard..sigh..hope i can finish studying before she comes o else i'll b in deep trouble..

was kinda surprised when yu hua told me she read my blog to keep her update wid my life..hehehe..really pity her..cos my blog n frenster is so outdated..thanks to my other disease (laziness)..really damn lazy to update my blog lar..not to mention my frenster which is like dead ad..hmm..will try to update my blog more frequently..anyway, take care wor, yu hua..wonder if we'll b able to meet bfore i leave for scotland in june..

ok got to stop now..penyakit lee ai lian is striking now..now i jus wished for my bed..my dear comfy bed.........

My Best Fren

sigh..i've been living on this Earth for 20 yrs..yet only today i found out who my best fren is..she's the only person on Earth who always patiently listen to me day n nite..when i'm still weak n vulnerable, she's the one who's always been taking care of me..n she's the only one i can confidently say who is always anxious bout my well-being..she's oso the only one who noes wat i like n hate..n rite now, she's the one i trust most..not tat i dun trust the others..but if i were to put trust in a scale hers would be 100%..

decided to blog bout this since it's the first day of the year..so kinda make things a bit significant..ironically, when i jus discover this best fren, my another best fren left me..shud haf noe it coming..anyway, wat's past is past..hmmm..in case any of u is wonderin, i'm not writing this entry bcos i us lost a best fren..ad plan to write bout this this noon..

ok..back to my best fren..sigh..couldnt wait to see her when i come back jb the next time..dunno wat i'll do w/o her..oh ya..was quite amused when she asked me if i had a boyfren lately..hehehe..anyway, thank you very much, Granny..too bad u'll nv see this..sigh..perhaps one day if i got the courage i'll tell it to u personally..u'll probably think i'm silly..but i dun mind..love your curry damn much..hehehe...

THANKS..

Going Backwards..

perhaps it's the new year..perhaps i'm jus plain wuliao..perhaps both..anyway let's turn back time to 23/12/2005..my family reach at ard 1pm..i think..anyway, thanks to lynn..i was able to move all my stuff to the car..man..my sis really have grown..hehehe..then we left vista n checked into a hotel in PJ..then dad went for his meeting..i tot he purposedly took leave to come kl to find me..in the end it turn out tat he came to kl for a meeting..anyway i'm jus glad n grateful tat i dun need to drag my stuff to pudu n travel home by bus..

hmm..let's see..then mum, sis n i took taxi to pyramid..nothing much to shop..sigh..wanted to buy tat dress tat i loved so much..the dress tat i tried on the last time i came there..then sudd i realised tat lay had the same dress..exactly the same one..how i noe, u may ask..i saw her wore it on wed..sigh..even comment tat the dress was lovely..so in the end i din buy..

after we were totally bored of pyramid, we went midvalley..hehehe..bought a LOT of polo shirt..(sounds crazy)..n bought a book titled "still life"..sis was kinda disappointed cos she couldnt find any clothes to her liking..so ya..she sulked all the way..hehehe..later we went to aunty nat for dinner..hmmm..prefer the last time i went wif my uncle..hehehe..cos the fish we ordered las time was bigger..we went back to the hotel..dirty n tired..then played a few rounds of cards wid sis bfore sleeping at 9pm..came back to jb on 24/12/2005 after breakfast..

on 25/12/2005, my aunt n cousins came to jb!!yeah..hehehe..din do much on 25th cos by the time they reach it's ad at nite..the next day, we went shopping!!yeah!!hehehe..bought a dress similar to the one i loved in pyramid one..only to find out tat lay had the same dress..man, she really loves those dresses..hehehe..heck care lar..i prefer this dress cos the prints are in PINK!!hehe..think tat's all i bought..my sis like org gila..bought over RM 300..(sigh..if only i haf tat much of money..i can pay of half of the car damages..)oh ya..bought an elle t-shirt as well..hehe..n plenty of undies..my cousins bought a few lar..my sis is still the insane one..hehehe..

on 27/12/2005..my fren's elian's bday..i stayed at home attempting to do the dd3 project in vain..my cousins n aunts went to city square for more shopping..oh ya..woke up VERY early today cos my cousins wan me to teman them for breakfast..needless to say i return home after tat to continue my sleep..then woke up for lunch again..bro belanja..cos my aunt's bday coming soon..hehehe..love the lunch..too bad not in the mood to enjoy..then in the evening, went lavender n bought a cheese cake for my aunt..hehehe..glad to hear tat she loved our gift..hehehe..guess it's really true tat the greatest gift comes in small packages..hehehe..cos the one me n sis gaf to her was really small compare to the others..hmmm..after blowing the candles n stuff she left at ard 12 am..sigh, begin to miss my cousins n aunt ad..anyway i got addicted to computer games today..sigh..

was browsing thru my laptop's photo today (30/12/2005)..saw some of the pics i took in Melbourne..then i realised how much i missed Melbourne..sigh..hopefully i can visit there again..wonder when will tat be.....

ps: wont be blogging tat frequently next year..IMU's connection sux..i would rather sleep at home..so will only blog when i'm in jb..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

An Expensive Christmas This Year

sigh..so many things happen ever since i las blog..there are good n bad things..first i injured my toe while opening a door..ended up seeing doc in the mid of the nite..thanks to penang sharon n ming jia..who willingly bcame my driver..n thanks for yan for caring for me..hehehe..hmmm..was saying tat yan's bf a bit 'duo zhai duo nan'..seems like the kettle calling the pot black (watever it is)..sigh..

Lady Luck definitely is not smiling at me at the moment..sigh..the worst xmas gift i gaf my poor neighbours today..i knock into their car..sigh..their back lights n my front lights were spoilt..damn embarassing as the whole street came out to find out wat had happened (naturally)..but i'm more ashamed bout how tat accident happened..sigh..wat a 'great' xmas eve tat i'll nv forget..so ms bear i'll b quite broke for a long time as i need to pay for the damages..i guess there will b no more trips for movies for me for the time being..sigh..n ms ling wei, i guess i cant go to tanjung after all..sigh..oh ya..in case if u r wondering, i was on my way to meet wif a fren for movies..after tat accident i was fetch to the movies..

hmm..the movie sux anyway..either tat o i was still in shock after tat accident..oh ya, my dear ai ren..my dad din scold me..hahaha..heard from my mum he warned my bro n sis not to mention bout it ever in front of me..so i guessed i can stop worrying bout my bro n sis making fun of me..sigh..i now only fear bout my grandparents n aunts since they haf yet to find out..tmr..tmr will reveal everything..sigh..i guess my grandpa will NEVER sit in my car..hehehe..dunno bout my granny though..i wont dare to fetch them anyway..sigh...........oh ya..jus tot of someone who will definitely NOT sit in my car after hearing this..my uncle..hehehe..

sigh..i guess tat shud b enuff bout the bad stuff..cos i dun really feel like toking bout it yet i cant pretend it nv happened (although i would love to do so v much..if only i can turn back time)..oh well..had a great time after pp2 class test..had steamboat tat nite wif yan, bear, lynn n her bf..then later went penthouse n borrow mah jong from then..n being a kaki judi i taught them how to play mah jong..we played till ard 3 am n lynn went to sleep..the rest of us (me, bear n yan) play 'tiga kaki' till ard 6am..then after cleaning the dishes, bear left..me n yan plan not to sleep..in the end i slept in her room..she was still studyin(damn rajin)..on thurs (22/12), the attendance was very bad for Dr. Soh's lecture..(fri was worst)..i was late for Dr. Ong's class..after having a tok wif Dr. Soh bout tat day's attendance..can see from his expression he was very disappointed..he expected full attendance on tat day esp it's after the class test..think he v kelian cos he's a very good lecturer..till now he haven told PP bout our poor attendance as he fully understand tat there are ppl who ponteng to study for coming exams..but i guess to him it's a bit unbearable to still haf poor attendance for thurs (n fri, i think)..sigh..so to all P1/04 who happen to read this, pls attend his lecture..

tat nite we had tang yuan..hehe..guess i can proudly say tat i did them with bear's n yan's help..but i guess i'm still not tat good in cooking compare to both of them..hehehe..bear damn 'ngim chim' bout her tang yuan...hehehehe..but i really think tat the ginger not strong enuff..keli n lay came first..then they both left..lay to i dunno where n keli to teman huey san to makan..then huey n agnes came..then me, yan, bear n agnes played mah jong (again..sigh..yan n bear addicted ad..)huey left to penthouse place..when she return at ard 10pm i think, i decide to end the game n return the set to penthouse..plan to go tok for a while but seems tat they were going out for dinner..sigh..so in the end went back wif keli (she was at penthouse too) cos keli wanna go take her pot n stuff..huey n agnes went back..

then as i was about to open the door for keli n bear for them to leave, the wooden door somehow (i oso dunno how it happened) 'cut' my toe..if u look at it now it's probably nothing..but tat time all i felt was intense pain..so intense till i can get up for a few minutes..i dunno how long..how long does it take for us (bear, keli n me) to get over our initial shock n for bear to call yan to open the door for them n for me n yan to haf a small tok bfore i was finally able to limp back to my room to rest..i dunno..so by the time i went to see doc (tat was after both me n yan had bath), i think it was ad quite ok except tat it was damn swollen..had tat stupid yet essential tetanus injection..sigh..sth i hate most..injection...now my arm hurts more than my toe..my family came to kl yest..hehe..so i need not go back by bus..went to pyramid n mid valley to shop..was damn tired n my toe ach like hell..anyway..after all tat had happened, i'm glad to b home at last...

for those who had wished me n to those of u who drop by..

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Nothing Much...

hmmm..guess it's been a long time since i blog..sigh..too much stuff happen within this time..let's see..we had food fair on 6/12..was quite a success..we managed to sell all our stuff..hehehe..but the money earned is still not enuff for the convo mag..had a damn tiring day..slept from 3pm till ard 7 - 8 pm..hmm..then we were wondering whether to go nite market o cinema..sigh..in the end we went nite market..but being the blur me i tot we were going to cinema..thank God i din really have much time to dress up..only managed to change to long pants which is ad v weird outfit for nite market..tat nite i bcame the joke of the day..hehehe..

been really tired these days..exams coming..yet i have not studied..been watching bleach every second i haf..sigh..thus this tiredness..these few days din turn out really well for me..dunno y..anyway, now haf to stop..really no mood to go on..will put up the pics for food fair n yest trip to midvalley when i feel better..

TRANSNASIONAL SUX....

TRANSNASIONAL SUX...used to love to sit transnasional buses...reasons is tat they are punctual..when the bus is supposed to leave at 1pm, they leave at 1pm sharp..but sadly, this is not the case any longer..the condition of the bus got from bad to worst..first, the three seater bus was replaced by four seater..next, the bus used to b clean..now it's home to cockroaches n flies..all this are consider small problems..i dun mind degrading from three seater to four seater..i dun mnd sharing my seat wif irritating flies n disgusting roaches..wat i cant tolerate most is the driver's inabilty to be punctual..if it's a few minutes late it's ok..but to be half an hour late..man, u must be blind..or are u tat dumb tat u dun even noe how to read ur watch o clock??strangely malaysians dunno how to read their time properly..we got this disease which makes us so prone to being late..it's such a norm ard here..ppl late for lectures, late for dates..even the wedding dinners start late..no wonder we so uncivilised..cos we're always late..late at arriving to the civilised world.....

The Beginning of A New Sem

overall, i'm damn excited n happy..dunno y i really looked forward to this sem..anyway, like all the other sems, i am always lzy..my diary is 3 months outdated n i haven start studying..sigh..

well, had a great week las week..went out almost everyday..n now i haf a big hole in my pocket..hmm..went n watch harry potter on thurs n dragon squad on sat..went to sg wang on sat at ard 8am for delifrance breakfast buffet..damn full..then went over to times sq to watch dragon squad..bought some souveniors for the two visiting lecturers who came today..nice ppl..

later spend my whole day in borders..managed to save $$ as i finished a book i wanted to buy..hmm..dun think i'm going to comment on tat book..but will put in the pic in..finish the anansi boys last week..damn nice..hehehe..really sth i've nv read bfore..hmm..my recent mood wasnt as happy as i tot..tot i'll b damn happy this sem..oh well, u cant haf everything in the world..going back this weekend..damn looking forward to it..