sO hApPy!!

hehehe..damn happy today..cos my new notebook has arrived!!yea!!guess i'll be spending my free time playing with it ad..hehehe..well like usual nothing much happen..except i just cut my hair..cut by my mum..hehehe..

was kinda angry at first..cos i tot she cut ad i looked like an idiot..but when everyone seems to like it i kinda feel quite happy about it ..hehehe..my face n neck is full of scars now..the result of me scratchibg it..feeling damn hot these days..sigh..maybe cos of the long hair..finished the book elyne borrowed me..was quite nice esp some of the neno parts..looking forward to her other recommended books..

today got scalded by hot oil while cooking..was actually frying chickens..now my body is covered wif red bruises..hehehe..went sushi king yest..i haf to admit that the sushi king in my hometown sux..everything oso dun haf..and i haf to wait for so long for my ebiko and stuf..they dun haf inari oso..walao..ate two plate of sushi then i went out ad..everything oso dun haf..go back drink green tea better..sigh..ok lar..this is supposed to be a happy entry..tat's all for now i guess...

I'm Free!!

hehehe..so happy..today is the last day of my days working..hehehe..jus got my pay..quite happy wif it..i actually earn RM 6 per hour..hehehe..nowadays damn busy..no time to watch tv..so wasn't able to online..hehehe..basically this few weeks i'm busy moving house..thanks to ai lynn, agnes, elyne, huey n dylan..i was able to move my stuff in one day..was damn tired after tat..but upon reaching home, i've got to carry out my new responsibilities..

my granny was unable to cook for these few weeks cos she jus undergoes an eye surgery..so i took over the kitchen n i am the cook of the family for these few weeks..i'm doing great (i think..at least my food is edible :p)hehehe..my sis n bro is kinda neno bout my cooking..kept on criticising on my cooking..nothing much though..but i think i cook better than my aunts n mum..hehehe..my granpa said i shud quit studying n be a cook..i think wat he meant was quit studying n be a housewife..hehehe..

tomolo going to watch star wars wif my pay..hehehe..couldnt wait till sem starts..but then, when the sem stars, i think i'll be looking forward to the breaks..hehehe..that's life isn't??so contradicting at times..

The Lazy ME!!

hmmmmmmm..just came back from ENT..had my ear wax removed..according to my mum, i'm a very expensive child to maintain..hehehe..first, my eyes needed speccs..n i changed them so damn frequently..yet i never wear them..hehehe..next my nose needed special care due to synus(dunno how to spell)..hehe..then my teeth needed braces and stuff..and finally, my ears needed to be attended by specialist every 3 years..why??cos i got a very hard ear wax..chinese believe (at least my parents do) tat ppl wif hard ear waxes (like me) are stubborn ppl..quite true lar..hehehe..so ya..got my ear wax removed today..

the feeling's great..hehehe..cos i can hear properly again..lately haf been working part time..yup u din see wrongly..i'm working part time..on fri, sat n sun..12 hours a day..as an art teacher..teaching pre school kids who are driving me crazy..hehehehe..hmm..next wat else i've done..ya..been vexed bout accomodation..cos kena halau by landlord..then at first found a place to stay and all is well until tat neno guy who went back on his word..so i'm homeless again..then now decided to move in to stay wif my fren..hehehe..wont say anything yet until i move in for sure..or else ppl will get very confused..hehehe..oh ya this holidays i did a lot of cooking, driving, eating n working..sigh..damn scared of the results which are coming out next week..think i got to stop here now..going to fetch sis..hehehe..

ps: haven update my diary even though everytime i say i'll update it..hehehe..see when i damn semangat only go update my very outdated diary..hehehe...

If I was born a guy.........

if i was born a guy..sigh..thanks to this statement in elyne's blog..i've finally got sth to write bout..hehehe..let me see..if i was born a guy..wat would i do..hmmm..first thing tat come to my mind will be the freedom i'll be having..hehe..not tat i hate being a gal but the things tat come together wif being a gal is jus too much..from constant nagging from mum bout safety and stuff to things which gals aren't supposed to do..sigh..hmm..maybe if i was born a guy thing wouldnt haf been so restricted..hehe..

after an hour staring at this screen, except for the freedom thing, the no period thing and the no more sex discrimination part, i still cant come up wif other ways tat guys haf a better advantage..hmm,..since i ad spend like more than 15 years being a gal, and i'm still alive, guess i would jus stick back to being a gal..sigh..this title is harder to tok bout then i first think..guess i enjoyed being a gal too much..

ps: the only thing i think i'll enjoy being a guy is tat i can haf sex 24/7 n dun worry bout getting pregnant..hehehe..n no period..nice..for a fantasy tat will never come true.......

Semester break

hmmm..let me see..my finals sux n i dun wanna tok bout it..basically did nothing these few days except watching naruto n dvds..finish all of them ad..hehehe..

then spent time in the kitchen wif granny and let me see..going to be my cousin's private tutor starting tomolo..my diary is like one month behind..arghhh..so plan to update it after this..actually waste my time sleeping eating watching tv online playing mahjong etc..hehehe..
first few days when i came back i actually kept on thinking of studying..hehehe..must be post-exam syndrome..sigh..whenever wanna eat o sleep i'll think of studying..going to go crazy soon..after exam only got the urge to study..hehe..then yest when to watch divergence..sigh,,not as good as i expect it to be..but ok lor..not too bad..hehehe..

well today woke up late cos yest watch midnite show n erm lately i damn tired for no reason..when i wake up, i found i got no place to stay in vista..my hsmates all moving out..sigh..so later after much hassle, i finally confirm moving to elyne's place..sigh..the thing was jus finalised..jus hope tat i got place to stay..and not like las time..hehehe..well, my next movie will be xxx2..hehehe..dunno when going to watch but hopefully soon..

oh ya been driving ard the town these few days..still sux in driving..kinda surprised tat i din damaged anyone's car YET..hehehe..ok lar tat's all for now..going to eat junk food then neno a while only update my long-forgotten diary..sigh..

IMU Ball..

hehehe..i noe i'm super duper slow compare to the rest of my frens who already flooded their blogs wif pics n comments on the ball long time ago..hehehe..now i'm beginning to think that i'm more like a sloth than a chameleon..hehehe..oh well, first of all, i'm not going to post any pics on the ball here..bcos i dun haf any!!stupid camera played a trick on me..sigh..got myself armed wif plenty of batteries cos i noe i'll b taking pics till i drop..well, i DID took pics till i drop but none of them is using my camera..sigh..so it was kinda useless n mafan to carry my stupid camera..

on the whole it was the best ball i've ever been to..but then again, how many have i actually been too??hehehe..guess i like this one cos i basically prefer this time's make up rather than the last time one (i noe huey has been saying i look like a stepmother..hehehe..but who cares??i like it then can ad lar..)secondly the make up's i up to my mark n CHEAP..thanks to jiet hui and frens..hehehe..hmm and this time..for the first time in my life (pathetic i noe) i got a date!!hehehe..sigh..kelian my dear princess..sigh..sorry i left her alone..maybe tat's y she called me cinderella stepmum..am i tat old??sigh maybe..

one thing i hate bout this ball is the food..but then again..when did the food in these type of occassion does not sux??heehee..was quite glad my chicken did not fly to the next table..oh ya..would like to thanks Dylan for helping me potong the stupid super hard bread..sigh..the food was so western..so full of bread..yet lack of cheese..sigh..anyway, was walking all over the place all the time either wif huey o dylan o both..(yup u guessed it..they were my camera man..)hehehe..

dunno whether i really damn ugly o wat but most ppl seemed to be shocked to see me..really tat bad meh??hehehe..sigh..think so too..judging from all the pics..but i still think i look pretty tat nite..hehehe..not on photos though..sigh..i'm living in a denial world..wanted to take pic wif prof ong..but the batt in huey's camera went flat..stupid..oh ya..my sai lou n sai sai lou were very pretty wor tat day..hehehe..quite a lot of ppl were very pretty tat day..EVERYONE except tat princess huey.. =p

who ask her say i like stepmother..hehehe..well, frankly speaking, huey din make it to the list cos i ad expected her to be tat pretty lar..so only those seldom wear skirts n stuff make it to the list..btw, i wear skirts to uni everyday..sigh..ad sem 3 n still a lot of ppl come telling me they nv seen me in skirts bfore..either u weren't paying attention, o my roughness hides away the skirts..hehehe..

hmmm din noe which paragraph to insert this..should be at the beginning i guess..but nvm lar..i AM a messy gal..well, we were late at the ball and guess wat..the door wasnt closed as promised..hehehe..why late??cos i was slow in getting ready..cos desmond's car went into smoke halfway the journey..was enjoying myself watching him neno the car..ya..i noe i'm a sadist..hmmm..why late again??oh ya was taking pic outside the ballroom..damn reluctant to get in..plus i jus sprained my ankle..was act surprise tat i could get on my heels but had to walk awkwardly cos it still hurts..thank God dylan was around..hehehe..so was act taking my own sweet time getting into the ball room..

ok..guess this will be enuff bout the ball..for those interested bout teh pics pls visit acrix blog..hmmm..look around lar..sure got ppl put one..oh ya n princess huey's frenster..hehehe..me not putting any pics..

It's NOW or NEVER

If you're mad with someone , and nobody's there to fix the situation... You fix it .
Maybe today, that person still wants to be your friend . And if u don't, tomorrow can be too late .

If you're in love with somebody , but that person doesn't know... tell her/him.
Maybe today, that person is also in love with you . And if you don't say it, tomorrow can be too late .

If you really want to kiss somebody... kiss her/him.
Maybe that person wants a kiss from you, too . And if you don't kiss her/him today, tomorrow can be too late .

If you still love a person that you think has forgotten you... tell her/him.
Maybe that person have always loved you. And if you don't tell her/him today , tomorrow can be too late.

If you need a hug of a friend... ask her/him for it.
Maybe they need it more than you do. And if you don't ask for it today, tomorrow can be too late.

If you really have friends who you appreciate... tell them.
Maybe they appreciate you as well. That if you don't and they leave or go far away today , tomorrow can be too late.

If you love your parents, and never had the chance to show them... do it .
Maybe you have them there to show them how you feel. That if you don't and they leave today , then tomorrow can be too late.

A Stroke of BAD Luck

it's been a bad day for me yest..first, i was sick after the trip from Ipoh..sigh..was having flu n stuff..next, jus when i tot of sleeping in as we only had class at 1.30, elyne came to my place asking for Grace's ID..so i drag myself off the bed, reluctantly..went reach uni, found out tat the computers in the e-labs are either not functioning or it's already been occupied..sigh..what luck..finally found a place..then turn out i couldn't log in due to some 'technical' reasons..so used joe's account..

as i was using other ppl's account, i couldnt print my stuff..so had to print later..went in late for both lectures..then after lectures, couldnt find a single functioning unoccupied computers..found one in e lab 4..comehow, i only managed to print 1 page out of my 9 page lab report..the ret din come out for some reasons n my print quota was minused..sigh..next, i went out of library, fuming madly..next thing i noe i slipped down the escalator n fell..as i was about to pick myself up again, i slipped again due to my inability to balance..so in the end i got my stuff scattered around the place and my heels were spoilt, and of course, the climax of the whole scene, i sprained my ankle..sigh..

then at nite, dylan came n massage/rub the area for me..then, we felt the building shaking..at first i tot was me feeling giddy n stuff, elyne on the other hand tot i was shaking the bed (we were both sitting on the bed)..no one realise till when dylan said out loud tat the building was shaking..next tat happen is wat i called a total mess..the same time when we discovered the building was shaking, my housemate came back..n my two seniors was out of their room..so there was a lot of conversations going on..my only worry was whether if the building will collapse..hehehe..sounds weird now..but tat was how i feel..then i sudd realised i jus sprained my ankle n if the building were to collapse, i will be the first to perished..sigh..thanks to my great housemates, who accompanied me step by step nv thinking of going first n leaving me bhind..we literally walked down a flight of stairs fom the tenth floor this way..the whole scene in the stairs can be depicted as a mini september 11 scenario..except there's less ppl n panic all together..

when reach the ground floor, i joined elyne to go insearch of huey..saw her in pyjamas wif the rest of the imu ppl outside imu..in the end, i slept overnite at my uincle's place wif huey n elyne..i cant bear the pain of going up again wif my sprained ankle..sigh so i opt for a place which doesnt required me to climb stairs n stuff..went to see doc this morning n got two days mc..a tern advice from the doc tat i should not put weight on my left foot for two days..thus, i cant walk for two days except for going to toilet etc..sigh..

even at the breaks where i was allowed to walk at minimal level, i find walking such a torment..so for ppl out there who takes walking for granted, it's time for u to appreciate both ur legs..and for ppl like elyne who thinks walking can be achieved by jus one leg, i'm so sorry to say that u're utterly wrong.. :p

mOThS!!n more..

guess it's time for me to make this place alive again..hehehe..lately damn stress..basically is cos i'm having my practical exam on microbiology tomolo..n a class test on monday which i have NOT revised yet..then another class test on next fri..sigh..the msian project is coming too..including two more reports to write..and i'm left wif only 3 weeks for this semester..and yet..i'm planning to go to the ball..wat's wrong wif me??arghh..like right now, i'm supposed to study for tomolo's exam..n i'm here blogging n msn-ing..sigh..jus SICK of studying lar..

basically i'm getting out of the topic..plan to blog bout moths..hehe..and how scared of them i were..for those who are elyne's constant fan, i guess u'll noe wat i'm toking bout..hehehe..i actually went to her place to spend a nite cos i'm afraid of the moth lingering around my room..well..it jus happen yest, while i was busy doing my pharmaco project, the same species of moth flew in again..sigh..u can guess how terrified i am..as i was damn busy i did not really freaked out as bfore..but as it settled down near me, i began to change my ind..called elyne for help..and being a good fren she came down to my place n caught the moth for me..despite tat it was around 1.30 am..for those animal lovers..u'll be glad to noe tat we did not kill the moth..jus merely put it in a plastic bag wif sufficient holes for air to go thru..but being soft hearted..hehehe..i untied the plastic bag (which we left near the dustbin in the kitchen) and..yup, u guessed it..as soon as i untied the plastic bag, i ran back to my room as fast as i could..sigh..pathetic huh?

i dunno why my place always has so many moths coming..esp my room..sigh..can anyone tell me y??is there any explanation bhind it??hehe..well, i was so scared tat more would come, i ask elyne to close my window n decided to turn on the air-con..din dare to go near the window in case there were more..hehe..well, enuff of moths toking..

tomolo or rather today, i'm supposed to conduct the msian studies class on my own..we're supposed to discuss bout the project we're doing..but frankly speaking, i doubt tat the attendance will be of satisfactory..and i can see dylan's face smiling at me now..a face which keeps on telling me tat i look like our msian studies lecturer..sigh..i dunno which part of me, whether facial features, character, etc, tat reminds them(agnes, yee huey, elyne dylan etc) of her..let's jus hope everything will turn out fine..

had microbiology presentation today..presented case 11..sigh..too bad i din get to present case 6..hehehe..presented wif yee huey n agnes..supposed to be individual work..hehehe..somehow we manage to persudae Mr Khalid to allow us to present it together..damn funny lar esp when others are doing it alone...hehehe..great experience though..hand in my pharmaco draft today (shud b yest) to prof yeoh..hehehe..manage to finish it by dawn..so i kinda slept for a few hours only..

hmm..may o may not go to imu ball..depending on the situation..hehe..funny thing is i'm not tat keen in going to it..not tat much..mayb cos i'm too busy to even think..sigh..oh well, it doesnt matter much if i'm going o not..hehhe..at least ta's true for me..btw, CHRISTINA WONG, if u're reading this, where's my dance club t-shirt???sigh..everyone in my class are so tensed up till they may explode at anytime..tat's true for me too..ok will stop here now..will blog again when i'm on the verge of having a neervous breakdown again..

Do Not Read..You'll Regret..

Had not blog for a long time..sigh..due to many reasons lar..jus found out from a conversation wif my fren tat there's something i cant tolerate bout other ppl..sth which i hadn't change despite of my 'chameleon' character..

somehow i totally dislike n disagree wif ppl who are either really brainless, or they haf the brain but choose not to use the full capacity of them..to me it all come to the same point tat to a certain extent they are brainless..i noe it seem harsh to a certain point n i noe some of them jus cant help it but somehow i jus cant seem to accept the fact..

i jus cant help feeling tat such ppl shouldn't exist in this planet..maybe i'm to close-minded..maybe ..maybe not..wat's the logic behind a person who is qualified as a professional but act as an idiot in front of his o her lover??a person who is qualified to be a professional clearly shows tat he/her has a certain amount of IQ and plenty of active grey cells within the brain..but how can one human being stooped so low tat even a school kid will tell u tat the person is brainless??perhaps it's bcos of love..perhaps..but pls..wake up from ur dream..there are no more fairytales which u used to believe when u were a kid..life is a reality..u haf to learn by hoook o by crook tat nothing is forever..no matter how strong n sweet ur relationships are, it will not last..no matter how deeep is ur love for each other it will not last..it's kind of obvious by jus looking at the divorce rate..Asians are fortunate in the sense tat divorce is not encourage..but still, the numbers are rising too!!

if the person is jus slow in watever thing he/she is doing bcos he/she is born (sad to say) brainless, tat i can more o less accept n sympathise..but an individual, who has the capabilities and brain, for some reason o other refuse to use it, makes my blood boil till it evaporates..i noe it seems a bit exaggerating but i guess tat's the only way i can relate my feelings..mayb i'm too emotional cos even when i'm typing now i could feel my blood boiling..

some of u may say: why bother??watever the person does is non of ur business wat...true..it has nothing to do wif me..nothing at all..not until that 'brainless' person becomes ur fren..then u get to see more of he/her more..and sees more of his/her idiotic and pathetic self..u'll feel helpless for not able to change the way he/she does things..i too would love to not bother wif tat person but truthfully, i cant..for some reasons i jus cant stop feeling angry whenever he/she turns from a brilliant n clever person to a brainless n idiotic person in a flash..

maybe i too am brainless..too hopeless too perhaps..who moes maybe u're always tolerating at my frequent brainless n idiotic way..well in tat case, like all brainless ppl, i'll NOT care the least of wat u think bout me..hehehe..perhaps tat's the reason why brainless ppl will always be brainless..but then again, like i said, nothing is forever..maybe one day brainless ppl will finally be enlighten..

A Tribute to a Friend..The Best I've Ever Had..

Thanks Sin Siu..Thanks for everything you did..without u, there will never be the me today..Thanks for ALWAYS being there when i needed u..although i had treated u a rotten way (during Form 2), u never ceased to be my fren, my soul, my diary, my teacher, my guardian, my angel, my everything..they say ppl whom u met in life will never leave ur life without leaving a footmark..if tat's true, u're the one who has the deepest mark in my life..through ur own ways knowingly or unknowingly, u taught me things tat can never be taught in schools..through ur little ways, u showed ur care in bundles..u are the only one who noes me so thoroughly tat sometimes it surprises me..even before i speak, u noe wat i'm going to say..in you, i found my perfect fren..and because of you, i hope to be, in turn, your perfect fren..thank you once again, my fren, the BEST i've ever had..

The Power of Words

Just realised how powerful words can be..be it spoken or written..by choosing ur words carefully,not only can u convey ur msg across, u can HURT or WARMTH others' heart depending on ur own will..to be able to do tat, u must of course be well equipped with vocabulary of tat particular language..

A certain msg can be conveyed very tactfully..so tat the recipients are protected from the 'sharpness' of the words..the SAME msg can be conveyed less tactfully..for those weak-hearted beware!!this also goes to show the beauty of words (and also the skills of the user)..some words when used alone seems dull and unprovocative..but when used together, it can touched other ppl's life, hurt them and evoked many more complex emotions..

Guess it's time for me to honed my skills..skill in using words, skill in communicating etc..i wonder how many hearts have i touched jus by using words?certainly less than those i've heard..yes..unfortunately i belonged to the group of people who can 'kill' people using just my tounge (pls dun think dirty)..but i believed tat i'm getting better nowadays..and one of my aims is to be able to touched ppl's life with the same tounge which was used to hurt ppl bfore..

As usual, it's always easier to be a bad person than a good person..found it extremely hard to achieved my aims..for once, in my entire life, i feel like being quiet..so tat i can neither do harm nor good..

Answers..And More Questions..

It's been quite a while since i last blog..hehehe..basically is tat i'm lazy to blog and i dun find the need to blog..cos Elyne has got most of the stuff in her blog ad..so why repeat??(in other words i lazy lar..hehe)

Refering back to the old blog on my search for my identity, i believe i've found out who am i..i am a chameleon..yes a chameleon..a very good one too..i'm capable of blending myself to diff situations and surroundings..hence the huge variety in my character n attitude..i'm SO good tat even i myself am confused..as to which is the 'REAL' me..

Then i realised tat everything i protrayed is the real me..i change my opinions on sth n my taste etc so quick tat at times even i myself find it hard to adapt..i jus cant help it..it occured naturally and almost spontaneously..and there's no stopping to it..so pls dun find me weird..so i guess my frens would haf to accomodate n tolerate wif me..so pls..jus accept me as who i am..

Been having some problems lately..which reminds me of a fren who used to think tat i dun mean wat i say cos i kept changing..sigh..i guess the best answer to it is tat my character n attitude is those which is prone to changes like the skin of the chameleon is prone to changing colour to adapt to its surrounding..i meant wat i said..at tat time..i jus cant guarantee to u if things will changed in future o not..

If u're thinking tat i've received a huge blow from someone recently which inspires me to write this, then i'm sorry to say tat u're wrong..been thinking a LOT bout it since i last blog it (pls refer to Feb 7 entry)..finally found an answer to it during Chinese New Year..i guessed tat's explain why this year i din really have the mood to celebrate new year as i was deep in thinking bout this..sigh so deep was the thinking tat even my Bro can sense tat something is very wrong wif me..but then again my Bro knew me well to know tat sth was not rite..

Ok..enuff of my chameleon-like-character..was quite sad today as i think i messed up ppl's relationship..although both parties din actually blame me..but i think i'm partly at fault..guess i interfere too much or interfere at the wrong time and wrong way..let's jus hope tat everything will be fine again..cos if not, i'll never forgive myself for wat i did..but then again, i may forget all about it tomolo..judging from my short-term memory..which is getting worse each day..sigh

sad..sad..sad cos i messed up too much..sad cos my best fren's mum is sick..she's been sick for quite some time..i think..hehe..(hope i din messed up wif the details)..she's having stomach pain..or was it abdominal pain..or does both terms mean the same??i'm not sure..all i noe is tat she's suffering from pain n she refused to see doc..so sad..and worried..cos she's like my mum to me too..i'm worried for her and yet there's nothing i could do..all i can do is to pray for her n hoped tat she's ok..

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Happy Valentine's Day

its been overall a HAPPY day for me today..hehehe..basically cos i won quite a lot tonight when i was at Ai Lynn's place..hehehe..secondly is cos i found out today i lose weight..due to my sickness i guess..hehehe..hope to maintain this weight for now..hehehe..ok lar that's all for now..for those deeply in love..and those single out there (like me) :

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

Who Am I??

forgot wat exactly triggered me to write this..but somehow i've been thinking who exactly am i??in other words i think i'm going thru the process which some of u had been thru before..i'm SEARCHING for my identity..i dunno who exactly am i..sounds weird huh?maybe..dunno wat sparked off..maybe a conversation between a fren..maybe is due to the events on few days back..but wat i realised is tat this has been an issue for a long time..jus tat i've been ignoring it for quite some time..since it's New Year soon, i guess it'll be better for me to 'selesaikan' it now..hehe..i guess i'm not those who can adapt to changes tat well gua..hehe..esp changes in me emotionally and mentally..sigh..i'm so confused to a certain stage tat i dunno who to continue this anymore..maybe when i've figured out a better way to express my thoughts thru words then i'll continue..for now all i wan to say is:

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

Is Everything Fated??

Was reading this book by Agatha Christie; titled Three Act Tragedy, and this paragraph caught my attention..it's potrayed in a different way..but in my opinion it's similiar to wat my M'sian Studies lecturer was telling us on Thurs..here's the whole paragraph which i quoted from the book:

Events come to people - not people to events.Why do some people have exciting lives while other people have dull ones?Because of their surroundings?Not at all.One man may travel to the ends of theearth and nothing will happen to him.there will be a massacre a week before he arrives,and an earthquake the day after he leaves, and the boat that he nearly took will be shipwrecked. and another man may live at Balham and travel to the City everyday, and things will happen to him. he will be mixed up with blackmailing gangs and beautiful girls and motor bandits. There are people with the tendency to shipwrecks - even if they go on an ornamental lake something will happen to it. In the same way men like your Hercule Poirot don't have to look for crime - it comes to them.

my M'sian Studies lecturer was pointing out the fact tat some people live a very smooth life where they always do the right thing at the right time and at the right place..Lady Luck seems to be smilling at them ALL the time..where as some people live a rotten life..watever they do seemed to be a failure..they do things at the wrong time at the wrong place..

if you fall into the category where things dun always worked the wat u wan it, fret not..Acc to the lecturer, God gave us two hands..one is fated to live the life u're destined to live..the other is for u to change ur destiny..some things are fated..others can be changed..so start changing ur life now..and STOP being pessimistic anymore..if you wanna change the way ppl treat u then change the way u think NOW..

HeLp!!

sigh..wanted to change the template of my blog to red/pink colour in conjunction of CNY..too bad.i dunno how..really feel like a technology idiot..hehe..so if any of u who read this pls help 'enlighten' me..thanks..

Friends...

Found this in my thumb drive..think i forgot to post it..even though some of the sentences does not stand true now, most of it still are..tat's y i decided to post it even though some may get offended after reading..hehe..so here goes..

Friends…What it REALLY means…

There’s no actual definition for the word friends.. Different people may have different concepts or opinion towards this particular word.. if u disagree wif my opinion, it’s ok, cos it only proves tat u are just another human, like me.. please take note tat these comments may not be true during later part of my life as my feelings and opinion fluctuates at every second of my life.. another thing I would like to warn viewers that this particular blog and those coming up may not be ur liking.. For this particular page I would like to comment on some of the meaning for FRIENDS (sorry if this sounds a bit formal..this is wat I call post-project syndrome..)

I used to feel that friends should not have any secrets between them.. Those who noe me well enough can verify that.. now, I feel that this definition cannot define the word FRIENDS thoroughly.. firstly, who on earth can have NO secrets at all.. A person wif no secrets, I’m sorry to say, haf no personality at all.. Look no further I was one of them.. I thought that by telling all my frens about how I feel towards them etc would help strengthen our relationship.. but I was WRONG.. utterly wrong.. Being straightforward may be good in some cases but the people today, including me, do not like to hear criticism from their frens although it’s TRUE.. once u hurt their feelings by being straightforward, be prepared to be ‘pulaukan’ by them for simple reasons like u’re not sensitive enough or u never filter ur thoughts etc.. other ideology includes that frens should be tolerant to each other and accept their weaknesses.. this brings us to my next point..

Many of us today feels that frens should be tolerant and accept each other’s weaknesses.. this like one of my previous definition of friends is another example of human’s utopia.. if this definition is true and everyone follows wat it says, there should be no discord among frens.. almost everyday at any corner of the world, frens, ranging from best frens, old frens, new frens etc, fall out among each other.. this will be the foundation of the typical gossips, backstabbing and all the ugly side of human.. remember, everyone is not perfect and everyone has the freedom to speak his/her mind.. having said tat, I don’t mean that I approve of ppl slandering each other.. although I despised backstabbers, we all must agree to an extend that the mouth is theirs..therefore they are free to make any comments, be it good or bad, about people and we have no right to interfere.. oops.. just figure out that I’ve side tracked a bit.. well back to our topic.. no one in this world can be 100% tolerant to one another and accept each other’s weaknesses and fault 100%.. not EVEN our parents.. from time to time there will be tiny little disagreements among friends.. if tolerance and acceptance is achieved 100%, will all this disagreements occur in the first place? How many of us actually saw friends around us become foes just because of a storm in a teacup? Because there’s no 100% tolerance and acceptance among humans (and it WILL NEVER be one except in ur dreams), small disagreements will end up to be big disagreements.. people who kept on insisting tat frens should be tolerant to each to other shortcomings may be THE one who make a big ‘hoo-ha’ about small matters like difference in opinions..

Finally, I think the best type of frens are those who trust u and from time to time have little disagreements wif u to entertain u towards ur ‘long’ journey through life.. I’m lucky to found a few of these frens.. but sadly to say, I’m far from being the ‘best’ type of frens..

Those who hates me to the core after finish reading this blog, all I can say is that I HAVE warned u.. so dun blame me, blame urself for being curious..

Ps: for those who feels tat frens should be 100% tolerant and accepting 100% of other people’s short coming, DO NOT, I repeat DO NOT, make any comments.. I dun wan to be ur excuse of breaking ur utopian definition of friends.. for those who beg to differ, pls feel free to comment about this blog.. Remember u are free to speak ur mind here..

It's Time...

Guess it's time for me to STOP being lazy..sigh..been pressured by friends from all corners to change over a new leaf..hehe..sounds weird i noe..but CHINESE NEW YEAR coming lar..haf to change..

New Year resolutions i guess..was quite surprised tat someone actually came and read my blog everyday..hehehe..well to my always loyal ai-ren..this blog is specially written for u as u're very anxious to noe bout my life here in IMU..

life's been so far so good..esp after the 'shark-pestering' incident..hehehe..nothing much happen soon after tat..except tat today's been an extremely BUSY day for me to catch up all tat i was lag behind all this while..hehe..erm.. basically woke up at ard 9 am n neno till 11 am only officially got up from bed..then went to bath at ard 12pm..while bathing half-way heard Dylan and Damiel's voices outside..seems tat my housemate let them in..neno wif them bfore meeting up wif Huey for lunch..came back at ard 1pm n start to clean and tidy my room like hell..went to Huey's place at ard 2.30pm..study my Biopharmacy there..

din help Agnes moved her stuff..sigh.. so guilty..but managed to revised finish wat i intended to do..slept for an hour or so before going to pasar malam wif Elyne n Huey..hehe..had great time there..walk back home cos couldn't find a taxi..but halfway Huey broke her slippers..so we got to take cab home..actually at tat time we're already very close to home..hehe..came back bath n online..tat was when i knew tat there's always someone who'll constantly go onine and view my blog..to this special friend who is also my dearest ai ren i thank you for ur constant support..i now know tat no distance can separate us..i'm constantly reminded tat i'll ALWAYS have a person to fall back on..

THANK YOU...