You're Beautiful..

well..i should haf posted this entry long time ad..but i think by posting it on 10/10 will be more meaningful..this entry is dedicated to someone special..you noe who you are..hmmm..basically i dunno wat more to write..cos most of the important stuff is ad highlighted by qi..but i would like you to noe tat you are one of the important ppl in my life..glad tat we had a huge misunderstanding las time..hehehe..or else i dun think i'll appreciate u this much..hmmm..i dunno why but this song kept popping in my head.........

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down......

well..at least part of the song..hehehe..well..i hope i'm able to bring tears to your eyes by now..which i very much doubt will happen..but i do hope tat if there really were tears, those tears are tears of joy..sigh..guess i really am bad at words..perhaps a hug will be able to explain all tat i wanna say..perhaps..so u better get ur ass back to kl this year..hehehe..ok lar..tat's all for now

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...

The Longest Yard

the longest yard..nice movie..reminds me of IMU cup..speaking of which we got second for cheerleading n third overall..strange thing is i dun feel happy at all..perhaps i sort of expected sth..oh well, it's over..but ppl..if u're really free like me u should go watch the longest yard..flight plan was nice too..very well-planned..but somehow not everyone was able to understand it..i think..cos so far the comments i heard was not really good..i guess diff ppl haf diff taste..i love it..it has a very good plot..sth which i dun see from movies nowadays..

saw this book in MPH on 29/9..seems nice..really wanna buy but too bad..i'm now banned from buying anymore books..reason?my house is currently full of books..sigh..the book is by a couple..nicci french (dunno which name is the guy n shish is the gal..) title : catch me when i fall..hehehe..n it's this title which catches my eye..flipped thru it too..damn nice..hehehe..trying to persuade my mum to let me buy this one..hehehe..

nothing impressive i done these days..unless u can count going back to imu on 4th to watch the cheer leading n came back on 5th as impressive..thanks keli for keeping me company..

ok..got to go for now..tomolo got to celebrate my mum's n mine chinese bday..hehehehe..will start working on 17th October..so i guess this semester break wasnt so bored at all..currently reading the undomestic goddess (by the same author of can u keep a secret?)

ps: dear ai ren..if u are reading this may i remind u tat my bday is coming..n all i wan is to take a pic wif u..hehehe..oh ya n to anyone who haf ken hirai's songs (any song will do) and fish leong's silk road..pls contact me..thanks..n to those in jb n are bored pls contact me..i'm dying to go out..hehehe

Finally!!

finally!!finally pharmacy won the basketball match against M1/04..God is indeed fair..but happiness is short..jus when i tot we'll get first in basketball this year, we lost to sem 1..how? i'm not sure myself..prob was too tired..cos although i was there i din noe wat was going on..jus noe tat i dun like one of the referees..sigh..IMU cup as usual has been unfair..sometimes i wonder y..y pharmacy batch still wanna play when they noe they wont win fairly..no matter how good we are, we'll still lose..it's such a waste of time..is it??i think i got the answers when i read keli's blog..pharmacy batch always have the semangat to play..it doesnt matter if we win o lose..but then i think it'll be a better event if ppl win fair n square n the end result is not tat pharmacy always gets last o second last n that Sem 5 always wins the cup..if pharmacy batch is really tat lousy in the games i got nothing more to say..i wont even be so hardworking to b typing all this..but from wat i see is tat pharmacy batch this year is diff from the previous years..we've got more ppl who're capable of winning..and it's strange tat although we won quite a lot of events this year our ranking in the IMU cup is still way behind..prob if any of the committee of the IMU cup can enlighten me in this (or anyone who actually noe wat's behind this??)..or perhaps after months of counting doses i'm only capabe of transfering units of the active ingredient??hmm..probably the marks were counted in such a way tat normal ppl with normal common sense like me can never understand..like the way i can never understand physics..oh well..i jus hope tat for other events like track n field n cheerleading we can win as well..hmm..i jus rmr sth..i rmr bear told me tat this yr IMU cup has debate..strange isnt??and apparently is cos that one of the committee members can debate..man..wat's going on??does tat mean tat i noe how to play mahjong then i can include it in IMU cup??wont tat b nice??as long as no money is involved playing mahjong is not gambling..i'm really looking forward for the day when IMU cup has mahjong..
hmm..like happiness, sadness is short-lived too..well, after the basketball finals, we went to sri petaling to eat at waffer's world..and..surprise, surprise!! (well, if u read elyne's blog ad then it wont b much of a surprise..)my best frens in IMU, namely agnes, ai lynn, christina, elyne, huey, sze lay n boyfren n tze yan, celebrated my bday..in case some of u who din noe, my bday is in october..so pls dun start sms-ing me..hehehe..a bit perasan i noe..well, i guess i was too happy to be free again tat i din noticed tat my frens were acting strangely the whole day..seriously i did find it strange when patricia wished me happy bday but later dismissed it..was too engrossed in the basketball finals i guess..it was really a pleasant surprise and to all my frens who contribute tat nite..thank you..cos i noe it's not easy to organise this when we were in the midst of exam..esp u guys haf to celebrate rite after the exams..plus, in such a short time and notice too..thanks..i really cant imagine how great u are..mainly by being able to come up wif sth so special..hehehe..and as for my bday wishes, let's hope it comes true..hehehe..
finally, the last point for this entry..i'm finally free..free from exams!!too bad i'm not free from worry and anxiety yet..let's jus hope we all pass..

Attn to Sony Ericsson Users

i need help..anyone noe how to use sony ericsson phone??as i previously said i'm currently using a spare phone..which happen to be sony ericsson n i haf no clue how to use it..sigh..so if anyone can help me pls let me noe..thanks....

Truth o Dare?

so glad the one week thing is over..i can finally blog bout this..hehe..well, for dear zhi yong, (if u read this)..if u still wondering wat got me last mon, all i can say it's tat it was the result of the lil game we played on tat sun..was supposed to say a lil speech before shaking hands wif dear zhi yong n end it wif a few loud claps..thank god the response i got from zhi yong wasnt so bad..in fact, i wonder wat's on his mind when i was doing all this..his mind seem occupied..well, at least in the end he still asked me if i'm alrite tat day..hehehe..kinda glad he gaf the response he gaf tat day..or u might see my face turn red..sth which nv happened bfore..hehehe..thank god it remain tat way..

well, after my first dare, i stick to the good old truth..and i must say those ppl who played are quite good at digging out truth..hehehe..but most questions are directed to my love life which is unsurprisingly nothing fascinating..hehehe..so tips to other ppl who play this game wif me..nv ask ques bout my love life..nothing interesting..i think my other life is much more fascinating..hehehe..

Lizard Killer Strikes Again!!

hmmm..for those of u who dunno bout this..i think most ppl dun noe bout this..well, i got this nickname back at home..yup..they call me the lizard killer for some reasons..hmmm..so yest while helping my granny and running ard the place, i accidently, i repeat, accidently killed a lizard by stepping barefooted on it..(wont include anymore details..pretty gruesome)hmmm..sad huh?so when my sis n bro knew bout this, you can imagine wat happened to me given the previous history..sigh..but think my sis pointed sth quite rite..i really pity the lizard..judging by the size of it, it mus still be at its infancy stage..my sis was saying tat the poor lizard din even haf chance to grow up n enjoy life..not forgetting the lizard missed its chance to mate etc..sigh..wat a stupid entry..i'm jus bored of studying..

Lords of Dogtown

Lords of Dogtown..is a mus see movie..din realise it was such a great movie..so glad i went to watch it..hehehe..red eye n ah sou was ok..prob cos i expects too much..oh well..

somehow fri (9/9/2005) wasnt quite my day..felt reluctant to wake up..then after attending 10 minutes of my tutorial, guess wat..the stupid fire alarm went off..so we got to leave for the senseless drill only to be told to go back to class jus when i reached the place we're supposed to gather carrying all my heavy bags..i noe i'm supposed to leave my belongings there n run for my life..but as it is jus a drill, i worry more bout my bus ticket, handphone, mp3 player n money more than the rest of the things..and as i have the habit to hide every single valuable things at place tat i dun even noe n need time to look for it, i decided i might as well take everything down cos it seems to me tat the lecturer's not going to cont anyway..but lucky o not he did cont..good thing is i felt at least i din waste my time by staying till fri to attend this one hr tutorial when i can go back on wed by skipping this class..bad thing is i think my shoulder is breaking..thank god huey helped me carry one of the bags..sigh..

next i rushed to pudu as the tutorial ended late (unsurprisingly)..jus to find out tat the bus was delayed..sigh..for half n hour some more..then when i finally got on to the bus, as i was searching for my mp3, i found out i forgot to bring sth..i forgot to bring my handphone charger home..argh!!so now my handphone's dead n i'm using a spare phone..jus when i wanna sms huey bout sth, i discovered sth..surprise!!all my contacts were saved in the phone n not a single contact was in my sim card..unlike huey who managed to rmr mine when her phone was spoilt, i cant rmr anyone's number except my mum's, my dad's n my bro's..sigh..isn't this great..thank god i got almost the whole class' contact number..jus when i tot that everything will work out fine now tat i haf the list..

on sat nite i discover another bad news..even if i got the whole class' contact number, i dun haf my other frens numbers..other frens meaning frens from convent n not forgetting other family members except those mentioned above..n since my fren's bday is today n i dun haf her number, i tried to sms my other fren for her number..cos my inbox (sad to say..act is my own fault..hehehe..cos i delete everyone else sms n left hers alone) has only one person's number..and she din replied me..only today i found out tat she was in jb n using her jb line..while i sms-ed her spore line..wat luck..sigh..thank god i somehow got the bday gal's number n sms her but she din reply..hope i send to the rite person..sigh..well, so ppl, if u read this n u plan to sms me pls name urself..so far i've only identify huey n ai lynn..n if i guessed wrongly pls forgive me..

oh ya..n now my chatter box has gone crazy..seems tat whenever i type spacebar the word i previously typed got posted..then somehow it was ok again..n got crazy again..can someone help me??btw, rac..the book's not bad..hehehe..dunno wat type of books u go for..but yup u can borrow from me..i'm in jb till 25/9..n the book's in jb..so feel free to come n borrow..as for apple, i reply u in ur chatterbox ad..in fact, i think i flood ur whole chatterbox..hope u dun mind..really sorry bout tat..hehehe..will read ur project..

MPO guy

shud haf blog bout this long time ago..hehehe..lazy lar..well, saw the guy during MPO Open Day..in fact, saw him the whole time i was there..then guess wat..i saw him again..in IMU..think he's the new batch..but only saw him on first day..then as i tot my eyes were playing tricks on me, i saw him in a pic the seniors took..n show it to bear..hehehe..so happy..can finally convince bear tat i din see wrongly..and also quite relieved i din see 'things'..(it was still the seventh month..sigh)

hmm..think the title for this entry is kinda not appropriate..cos it's not mainly on tat guy..hehehe..finished PS: I Love You ad..not too bad..but din quite like it..prob Holly resembles someone i noe very much..n that someone is definitely not in my good books lately..sigh dunno y..probably is my fault..too discriminating..but cant do much bout it..but then again i'm probably too sensitive..Holly may not resemble that person that much..but there's definitely sth in Holly tat reminds me of the person..well, i better do some justice to the author..kinda surprise tat she's only 22..hehehe..got great talent in writing cos i dun think i can write like tat even when i'm 122..well, probably i'm exageratting a bit..but i think the author did quite good..too bad i jus dun quite like some parts..


and guess wat..i finally found the cover of velocity..with some help from bear..hehehe..well, i think i'm not suite satisfied by the story cos i feel tat the author shud haf explain more..but then perhaps it's purposedly done this way for watever reasons..well, not going to judge much bout it..but the bartender did impressed me each time he decide (or din decide) to do sth..will be a great book if the author clarify more things..it din fail to take me in surprise at each turn..i dunno whether i'm jus plain thick o wat but this is one book tat i fail to see wat's coming (except those plain easy ones) until it's reveal..oh well, get one urself n judge it urself..

here's sth to grab ur attention (i hope..took it from the book) :

‘If you don’t take this note to the police and get them involved, I will kill a lovely blonde schoolteacher. If you do take this note to the police, I will instead kill an elderly woman active in charity work. You have four hours to decide. The choice is yours.’



so..the choice is yours..to get the book o not..i got it from kinokuniya in klcc..seen it in mph..not sure bout borders n popular o times..but think borders shud haf..so, make ur choice now..

coming up next : book review on Sophie Kinsella's 'The Undomestic Goddess' when (a) i finish reading it and (b) i am hardworking enuff to blog..(i noe i did mention tat i'm not doing anymore book reviews but jus realised there's still a couple of books i haven read finish n 'The Undomestic Goddess' is one of them..)

Mirror, Mirror On The Wall, Who's The Ugliest Of Them All...

i dunno wat's your answer..but mine is definitely cinderella..sigh..for the first time in my life in IMU, cinderella's the most hideous IMCC of all..but i really mus point this out..tat 'princess' sure has got lots of guts to go up the stage n did watever 'she' did..too bad i dun haf any of the pics..better not post it..spoil my blog..

hmmm..been quite sometime since i blog..sigh..blame it on last week's class test..but i think those who noes me better would know tat the culprit is laziness...sigh..supposed to post on this book when i finished reading it..well, it's always better to be late than never, rite??hehehe..quite a nice book..when i was browsing the net for the pic of the book i stumble into this blog..seems like i'm not the only one who's reading the book..in case u r wondering wat book i'm toking bout, it's 'Asking for Trouble' by elizabeth young..nice book..hmm back to the blog i stumbled to..the owner of the blog is malaysian too and she (i think it's a she) read cecelia ahern's 'PS: I Love You'..hmm..i haven finished reading 'PS: I Love You' yet..will comment on it when finished..hehehe..


watch red eye n ah sou during the weekends..not bad..hehehe..was sort of scared to watch red eye cos my room mate told me it was a ghost movie..thank god it's not..planning to go watch another movie this wed..hehehe..so happy..long time din went for movie marathon ad..then went huey's place yest..played card games wif huey, bear n sze lay..contents of the game (well, partly, that is) will be revealed next week cos i promised to only reveal it next week..hehehe..

finished another book called 'Velocity'..by Dean Koontz..hmmm..cant find the pic of the book..so until i found the pic then only i'll tok more bout the book..act i jus cant find the cover which i haf..think mine's the UK version..sigh..cant they jus uniform it..

oh ya..from today onwards i guess there wont be anymore book reviews..except for 'Velocity' (if i can find it in time before my laziness sneaks in) and 'PS: I Love You' (cos i'm still reading it..hehehe)

hmmm..and i passed my 'down' period ad..hehehe..prob it's the stress from the neno class test..well, think i did quite well for the exam..cos first time in my life i got such remarkable results in class test..hope i can cont this performance..hehehe..

well, the time now is 2.41pm n i haven taken any meal yet today..so, i guess i gtg now..and continue another day cos i can feel the gastric being excreted out..sigh..plus there's the book waiting for me at home n my long-forgotten diary waiting for the updates..hehehe..


Wat a Day..


stupid pp1 essay..make me go crazy..sigh..keep on telling ppl wrong info..for those who got the wrong info..i'm sorry..sigh..anyway jus wanna post this pic..promise a fren i'll post up the pic of my new (act not tat new ad lar now) hp..hehehe..cant find the one same as my colour..so u haf to use ur imagination a bit..imagine it in red..




oh ya..forgot..my dear apple, 'call me elizabeth' is now available..let me noe when u coming to collect..or jus let me noe when u r in town..hehehe

The Power of Books

yup..i noe i shud be studying by now..hehehe..but jus rmr sth..books can be very influencing..sigh..been reading those neno books for too long..n it's beginning to put weird ideas in my head..sigh..made up my mind to stick back to the good old stuff i usually read before this..in case things get out of hand..hehehe..ok, really got to go now..

oh ya..before i forgot..my blog is 1 years old ad..sigh..supposed to 'celebrate' it on its bday..but forgot..poor thing..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!

Miss Goatee

sigh..shud haf blog bout this days ago..hmm it's act bout a dream i had..hehehe..forgot the details though..jus rmr i had a goatee..some how..hmmm..it's kinda funny..but somehow it seems so real that each day i worry it turn true..hehehe...

went to MPO on sun wif bear..was a damn nice experience..love the classics..hehehehe..visit bear's blog for more info..lately been meeting wif my cousins..so fun..hehehehe..one of my cousins went USA last week..din act went to see her off cos of the time factor..but went to visit her the day bfore she left..too bad din haf enuff private time wif her so i was quite silent tat nite..cos most of our relatives came up from melaka to wish her etc(stuff u normally say to a person who's leaving overseas for studies)....

yest went out wif cousins too..so fun..too bad din get to tok for long cos when we meet is ad quite late..hehehe..sigh..yest huey they all went midvalley..wanted to go too..but part of me wanted to meet cousins as well..plus, i ad promied them..act i hoped that huey they all go out today..hehehe..so i can tag along as well..prob is a sign to me..asking me to spend today studying..if that's the case, i think i better stop..sigh..wasted half a day..doing nothing..oh well, will stop here..

so happy tat i'm going home tmr..

I'm Sick!!

Sick..sigh..sth i couldnt afford to be..hope i'll be ok soon..sad..sad..no mood to write ad..so this blog will be dead till its bday..hopefully by then i'll be ok ad..

The New Cheesy Pizza..For Cheese Lovers

i think only agnes will b able to appreciate this pizza..in my own opinion, the pizza has nothing much to offer..sigh..the prospect of eating many types of cheese is indeed inviting for a cheese lover like me..but i dun think i quite like it lor..hehehehe..prob i chose a bad flavor which din really go with the cheeses..anyway been real happy back at home..dun feel like going back..sigh..but wat to do..damn happy when i think tat our sem is going to end soon..so the sooner it is i can b at home..but then again, i dun wanna go scotland so soon..sigh..

I can see the sky..I can see the clouds..I can see the sun.......

i'm in paradise..hehehe..after enduring weeks of the neno haze, i'm back to where i belong..where i can see the sky, the clouds, the sun and breath more freely..hehehe..sigh..these few days damn tough esp for me..thank god i'm back at home..but still haf some side effects...hehehe..

pity the animals though..saw some on my way back in upm..sigh..we humans can escape to indoors..while they haf to suffer outdoors..some lucky ppl like me can go back hometown..n they still haf to stay there..sad sad

finish reading elyne's book ad..eleven minutes..damn nice..but then again, i realise that all the book i recommend in my blog are all 'damn nice'..hehehe..jus cant figure out this..y ppl still smoke when the haze is so bad..if u badly need to smoke jus go outdoors n deeply inhale..get all the smoke u wan for free..n stop lighting the cigratte..contributing to the haze..

Unlucky Day

sigh..was damn unlucky las sat (6/8)..went to pc fair tat day..fell down twice..fell when i was approaching the guardhouse while attempting to receive a call..in the end my phone ended up scratch..sigh..second time fell when i was climbing up the stairs..sigh..my feet was step by ppl umpteen times..and ah foo accidently step on my slippers..causing a bruise to form on my feet..sigh..basically i haf to check for injuries when i reach home..

anyway, i bought a new mp3 player..hehehe..to those who ad noe, yes..i ad got one..but then i jus cant resist this so i bought it..plus after travelling so far n squeezing thru sea of ppl etc i think i haf to buy sth..hehehe..anyway i'm giving the old one to my sis =p hehehe..

been damn neno lately..sigh..ok lar will stop here now...........

Nothing Much

hmm..damn pissed off with gmail lately..yest i cant log in..today, i cant send email..wat's the point of having an email acc when u cant log in to check ur mails n send emails??sigh..maybe i'm jus bad luck..

finally finish reading harry potter today..hehehe..finish it at ard 4.30 am..almost couldnt wake up for lecture..hehehehe..luckily huey called me which is like ard 10.20 am..i got like 10 minutes to get ready n rush to uni..went to lecture empty handed except for the essentials - money n hp..din haf time to figure out which lecture i haf so no notes were taken..now waiting for 2pm to come so i can meet my new tutor..so sad tat Dr Ling's going..sigh..
the book wasnt really up to my expectation..sigh..prob cos i haf too high expectation for it..find it quite plain compare to the previous ones..prob i kinda guess the ending..sigh..watever..guess it's time for me to conc on PP1 n HEP..........

Jus Plain Happy

i'm so happy..in a way..hehe..bear tells me yest i'm a good actress..cos althou i'm feeling kinda sad but i dun show it out..hmm..dunno if this is good news o not..hehehe..

wat i'm happy is tat after the previous entry i posted i'm quite shocked yet warmed by the responses i got..first, ai lynn sms me bout it..i'm reluctant to tell her n others bout the details cos like wat chun yau said : i only heard fragments of it..so there's no way i can conclude..hmm..then to my surprise bear n purple was concern bout it too..after they read the entry..hehehe..then my best fren was worried too..hehehe..

din blame her for not sms-ing me..sms-ing ppl from overseas is not cheap..wat i dun expect is..response/comment from chun yau..i had no idea he reads my blog..so thank you all..(the sequence of the names mentioned above is based on wat i saw/heard first..cos i dunno which comes first..)hmm..prob some of u may wonder why am i so happy over such small things..i tot no one would bother but seems like i'm seriously wrong..

next, i guessed i'm happy cos we dun need to retake the cvs exam..sigh..a load off my back..so damn happy that i dun need to study tat again..for now tat is..another tat i'm happy is prob tat bear got back her print quota worth RM 3..may seem little to some of u but believe me..RM 3 is a lot when it comes to print quota..

last but not least,

Thanks to all for ur concern..Have a nice day...........

Not So Perfect After All

sigh..went home this weekend..was quite happy despite some stuff happening..jus when i tot i would return to bt jalil in an overall happy mood, i kinda overheard a piece of conversation which totally ruin my whole week..possibly whole month..sigh..

hmm..guess i'm prob too naive o wat..cos i always tot my family was a grat family althou we're not as rich as others etc..but nevertheless, we're happy..i tot..sigh..the fragments of conversation i heard totally shattered my perception of my family..prob i've been dreaming too much........

Call Me Elizabeth

bought this real nice but not cheap book from MPH las thurs after my CVS exam..CVS exam was ok since it's much easier than i tot..been quite fan bout certain stuff these days..almost went bonkers on tues (26/7)..felt like jumping off my balcony..sigh..guess i really too stress..




A great book bout a great mother..i really salute to the author - for her courage..courage to endure all the sufferings she suffered..and her courage to write it all into a book..besides that, her love for her children is really beyond imagination..cant say if wat she did was rite o wrong..cant possibly judge her since i myself never went through all those..this book really touches my heart..more so as it's a biography rather than pure fiction..

Plain Gross

sigh..felt real sick after reading a news report on child pornography in Malay Mail on Saturday..the things tat ppl do to kids are jus plain gross..some dads rape their child cos they can sell the video to earn some cash...some jus practically sell their kids to others for filming porn..sigh..cant continue anymore..feel damn sick now..

The Ugly Side of Human (Part 3)

been thinking of blogging this entry for days..had this plot in my mind when i came back last Sunday..hehehe..somehow due to my laziness(as usual) and stress(from CVS interpertation exam) the posting of this entry was delay..hmmm..plan to act post this up only after my CVS exam..but then again, life goes on..so might as well post it today since i'm so free n haf nothing better to do =p (this is the 2nd time i'm typing this..sigh..lost the first draft..so guess this would b inevitably shorter than the original one..tired of typing)

as usual, i would like to warn whoever is reading this page, if you're unhappy wif wat i am going to write down here, there are a few things you could do :

a) close the page..there's this cute little x at the right hand side corner of this page
b) write down any comments you feel like it..no foul language though..we're in the 21st century ad..be civilised a bit for God's sake
c) go back and think..there is a high chance when u dun like wat u hear or see from ppl is tat it's the 'ugly' truth about you..so it's high time to do some soul searching
Secondly, i would like to say tat this article is not directed to anyone i noe..if u feel tat it's directed to you, it's just a pure coincidence..cos there is no way it's directed to you since it's based on myself..if you do find this familiar, you should rejoice instead..cos u're not alone..
So, here goes the ride through the ugly side of human..(for the third time)

recent incidents happening around me kinda indicate tat most humans, if not all, actually enjoy using each other for various reasons(mostly selfish reasons)..basically, i myself noe of a few people of tat kind..everyone from all walks of life have, whether directly or indirectly, use another human being for their own advantages..remember the time u ask favours, be it small or big, from others?well, tat's the time when u join the 'club'..the club of using ppl..situations like this happen everyday..i bet many of u had/have/will use others for ur own purposes..if you beg to differ, all i can do is congratulate u for making into the list of 'ugly' humans..for telling such a 'beautiful' lie...(pls refer to The Ugly Side of Human (Part 1)

chronic 'users' only tok/phone/sms/email (in plain english contact) u when they need a favour from u..the favour range from wanting transportation from u to asking u to be their personal Pos-Laju..it's ok if u ask favours from others, i mean who nv ask favours before?(i would be lying through my teeth if i say i haven)the fine line bet 'normal users' n 'abnormal users' is the ability to noe the limits..it's fine if u noe ur limits..but sadly, many ppl out there dun haf the basic instinct to noe the limits..

toking bout noe-ing limits, one shud really consider this when trying to criticise others..it's ok to haf healthy comments bout others..but it gets nasty when u forget the limits..bottom line is dun ever think tat u are perfect..cos no one is in this world..always take a good look at urself before criticising others..stop saying others are stupid when u urself are NOT tat smart..if u really are, u wont be here wif me in the first place..u'll be six feet under ground, alongside wif Einstein..and to those of u out there who had been criticising me for ages..here is a lil advice for u:

a) even my parents dont mind..why should u??y bother urself wif my matters??dont u haf A LOT of things in hand??mayb u shud jus mind ur own business??if u are really tat free, mayb u can do wat Jasper suggested..get a spouse and haf 12 kids in a row..tat'll keep u busy both physically n mentally for good..
b) u r not as perfect as u think..true, there mayb some qualities in u which is better than mine..neverthelessly, according to bear:

in my opinion, "perfect" (I really mean perfect in every ways) people won't even discriminate others as they are already so perfect that they dun have any flaws at all! So, whoever you think is/are perfect here, is/are not perfect.

c) this is me..i like the way i am n would nv change for now cos i feel comfortable being the way i am..so either u accept me, or jus get out of my life..cos u r definitely 'friends' who are not worth keeping..

lastly,
I wonder why...I wonder why AA has plenty of comments even when her entries are predominantly made up of few short sentences... =p

ps:i plan to blog three entries at first..but somehow i guess i'll jus combine all three together to make a real LONG one..hope u enjoy this..do leave a comment..badly needs them to soothe my nerves..hehehe =)

BORDERS..


went to Times Square las wed..watch a movie wif miss bear..hmm..a very chim movie..not a good option if u jus wanna relax n enjoy..mayb i jus dun quite like to think too much..after the movie, went to borders..nice place..real heaven..till now haven explore finish the store..hehehe..bought two books from there..finish one of them in jus one day..damn nice..the book currently is wif purple..i would definitely recommend this book..hehehe..althou i dun think everyone will like it..really still depends on wat type of book u prefer..

one of the books i bought...damn nice~

n3n0-ing

Before


After


Today was damn happy for obvious reasons..hehehe..took these pics on sat during the Cheer 2005..so happy tat Dynamitez won..hehehe..they were great..

learn many stuff today from bear n foo..hehehe..tat contributed to my happiness today..but i mus agree tat there are some issues which kinda got on my nerves today..guess will b highlighting some of them..hehe..got this really neno lecturer teaching us now..sigh..damn good at 'blowing cow'..he loves to waste time boasting bout his past..think i mention this bfore..sigh..but wat to do..he really sux lar..unlike miss bear i'm going to give him an evaluation report at the end of this sem tat will make him stop neno-ing(i hope)..

damn stress these days..got too many stuff haven done yet..sigh..but one thing which i've been looking forward to is tat i'm going back this weekend :D


Before After




A n3no Day

hmm..wasnt really enthu in writing bout the midvalley trip yest..till i saw miss bear calling us monkeys..hehe..so guess we would soon be calling names at each other soon..hehehe..basically this blog isnt mainly bout yest..cos i guess the main outline bout the trip will be from bear's blog..so this entry would be on wat had happened the past few days n stuff..

i guessed i mus haf grown older A LOT these days..on las tues, a lecturer, who obviously had not taught us bfore, mistook me for another lecturer..this incident created an uproar in my class..sigh..i still cant figure out wat makes me look like another fellow lecturer to him??hmm..wished i could go in further details bcos this incident seems to brighten up many ppl's day upon hearing bout it..but somehow i jus dunno how and where to start so if u r really interested let me noe..

hmmm..another 'funny' incident happened this mon when we were having HEP workshop..somehow my words were not appropriate..hmmm..i was merely asking the lecturer if i could show him my outline privately..and it seems that the word 'privately' causes many to imagine stuff..sigh..i was kinda ok wif the reaction they gave but it seems tat it causes the lecturer to feel kinda awkward n stuff..he was kinda weird today when i went n see him regarding my draft..hehehe..so i guess it's kinda obvious he remembers me?!?hehehe..so basically u can feel awkwardness n stuff hanging in the air when i was in his room for..yes, 'private' sessions on my outline...:p

hmm..basically i like all my lecturers this sem except for tat one n only..sigh..i'm not sure y i dislike him tat much..but he's really a waste of time..as in he spent the first half of the lecture toking bout wat i consider as rubbish..or should i say he spent the first half of the lecturer boasting bout himself..arghhhh..and end up couldnt finish the lecture..if u r really tat great mayb it shud ad be one of ur principles to stick to the time..man..if u r given 1 hour to lecture then finish it in 1 lecture..if u finish the lecture earlier (which i doubt it) then u do wat u like wif the excess of time..by boasting bout urself at first half of ur lecture, u are basically wasting my time n money..n if u haven noticed it, u had ad lost most of the attention from the class..the class gets more n more restless towards the end..sigh..

hmm..basically was damn excited the day bfore yest cos yest was going to midvalley for two movies..but my spirits was kinda dampen by tat neno lecturer..thank God my spirits lift up when we got the movie tickets..hehe..had Sushi King for lunch n Pizza Hut for dinner..all well ends well..i managed to buy the beans my aunt wants..u can kinda imagine how i look when i return to vista..exactly like Santa Claus wif his huge sack..hehehe..

guess tat's all for now..got to run..having a lecture soon..will blog again..when i feel like it..

A New Hope To This Blog

hehe..not really sth big deal lar..jus tat i'm kinda lag in everything i do these days..from academic to social to entertainment etc..sigh..been kinda behind wif all my revisions n stuff..then this mon i receive my HEP topics..sigh..more work to do..haven done any research yet n i've like tons to study..plus the lab practicals to cover before each sessions..sigh..one thing i am thankful for is tat i'm exempted from the damn EARLY english class..hehehe..hmmm..i dun really noe wat i'm busy wif cos i dun even haf time to go online to check emails n blog..yup..so for the first time in my life, the reason y this blog seems dead is tat i haf either no access or no time to access to the net..and not becos of my laziness creeping in..hehehe..strange har??

remember my previous entries when i said that i was forever changing n adapting to the environment ard me??hehehe..guess i'm adapting pretty well in my new home..hehehe..so much so that now i hardly had afternoon naps(pls disregard this week..hehehe..cos i've been having a lot of 'nite activities' which are unpredictable)hehehe..strange huh?for a sleeper like me??guess it's bcos i sleep at ard 11.30pm everyday now..and wakes up at 6.30 am( another shock for those who knew me well..hehehe)hmm..y wake up so early u may ask..well, been jogging wif frens (namely tze yan n jiet hui) every morning at 7 am..hehehe..kinda too healthy for a person as lazy as me?!?kinda like this healthy lifestyle..hope it'll last although this week i've been skipping jogging sessions due to the late 'nite activities'..

hmmm..probably many will misinterpret the 'nite activities' i do every nite this week..well, basically is tat my roommate (ai lynn) is not ard these days..so i kinda forgot bout time when i embarked on new missions i set for myself..normally stop only when feel tired..bad way of timing my tiredness huh??wif ai lyn ard, i sort of haf a 'reminder' wif me..so was kinda glad if she's at home..so i'll sleep earlier n thus wake up earlier n not taking afternoon naps..which will lead to me wasting a lot of time..arghhh..i cant believe this...i cant believe tat one day that a sloth like me will say tat sleeping is a waste of time...well at least sleeping too much..hehehe..i dunno whether i should rejoice o mourn for this sudden yet healthy(acc to my mum n almost everyone i guess) change..hehehe..

guess tat's all for now..sigh..damn tired now..slept only for less than 3 hours..played caesarIII wif elyne yest till 6.30am(yeah..tat's one of the notorious 'nite activities')sigh..getting addicted to games now..stupid laptop..hehehe..maybe i shud stick to old n slow laptops so tat i wont b encourage to play games too much..thank god there's now connection now at my place..or i'll be lagging more..going for lab now..(really worried bout pharmacy practice labs..looks tough..cos any small mistakes will lead to a deduction in ur marks..God bless me..)

sO hApPy!!

hehehe..damn happy today..cos my new notebook has arrived!!yea!!guess i'll be spending my free time playing with it ad..hehehe..well like usual nothing much happen..except i just cut my hair..cut by my mum..hehehe..

was kinda angry at first..cos i tot she cut ad i looked like an idiot..but when everyone seems to like it i kinda feel quite happy about it ..hehehe..my face n neck is full of scars now..the result of me scratchibg it..feeling damn hot these days..sigh..maybe cos of the long hair..finished the book elyne borrowed me..was quite nice esp some of the neno parts..looking forward to her other recommended books..

today got scalded by hot oil while cooking..was actually frying chickens..now my body is covered wif red bruises..hehehe..went sushi king yest..i haf to admit that the sushi king in my hometown sux..everything oso dun haf..and i haf to wait for so long for my ebiko and stuf..they dun haf inari oso..walao..ate two plate of sushi then i went out ad..everything oso dun haf..go back drink green tea better..sigh..ok lar..this is supposed to be a happy entry..tat's all for now i guess...

I'm Free!!

hehehe..so happy..today is the last day of my days working..hehehe..jus got my pay..quite happy wif it..i actually earn RM 6 per hour..hehehe..nowadays damn busy..no time to watch tv..so wasn't able to online..hehehe..basically this few weeks i'm busy moving house..thanks to ai lynn, agnes, elyne, huey n dylan..i was able to move my stuff in one day..was damn tired after tat..but upon reaching home, i've got to carry out my new responsibilities..

my granny was unable to cook for these few weeks cos she jus undergoes an eye surgery..so i took over the kitchen n i am the cook of the family for these few weeks..i'm doing great (i think..at least my food is edible :p)hehehe..my sis n bro is kinda neno bout my cooking..kept on criticising on my cooking..nothing much though..but i think i cook better than my aunts n mum..hehehe..my granpa said i shud quit studying n be a cook..i think wat he meant was quit studying n be a housewife..hehehe..

tomolo going to watch star wars wif my pay..hehehe..couldnt wait till sem starts..but then, when the sem stars, i think i'll be looking forward to the breaks..hehehe..that's life isn't??so contradicting at times..

The Lazy ME!!

hmmmmmmm..just came back from ENT..had my ear wax removed..according to my mum, i'm a very expensive child to maintain..hehehe..first, my eyes needed speccs..n i changed them so damn frequently..yet i never wear them..hehehe..next my nose needed special care due to synus(dunno how to spell)..hehe..then my teeth needed braces and stuff..and finally, my ears needed to be attended by specialist every 3 years..why??cos i got a very hard ear wax..chinese believe (at least my parents do) tat ppl wif hard ear waxes (like me) are stubborn ppl..quite true lar..hehehe..so ya..got my ear wax removed today..

the feeling's great..hehehe..cos i can hear properly again..lately haf been working part time..yup u din see wrongly..i'm working part time..on fri, sat n sun..12 hours a day..as an art teacher..teaching pre school kids who are driving me crazy..hehehehe..hmm..next wat else i've done..ya..been vexed bout accomodation..cos kena halau by landlord..then at first found a place to stay and all is well until tat neno guy who went back on his word..so i'm homeless again..then now decided to move in to stay wif my fren..hehehe..wont say anything yet until i move in for sure..or else ppl will get very confused..hehehe..oh ya this holidays i did a lot of cooking, driving, eating n working..sigh..damn scared of the results which are coming out next week..think i got to stop here now..going to fetch sis..hehehe..

ps: haven update my diary even though everytime i say i'll update it..hehehe..see when i damn semangat only go update my very outdated diary..hehehe...

If I was born a guy.........

if i was born a guy..sigh..thanks to this statement in elyne's blog..i've finally got sth to write bout..hehehe..let me see..if i was born a guy..wat would i do..hmmm..first thing tat come to my mind will be the freedom i'll be having..hehe..not tat i hate being a gal but the things tat come together wif being a gal is jus too much..from constant nagging from mum bout safety and stuff to things which gals aren't supposed to do..sigh..hmm..maybe if i was born a guy thing wouldnt haf been so restricted..hehe..

after an hour staring at this screen, except for the freedom thing, the no period thing and the no more sex discrimination part, i still cant come up wif other ways tat guys haf a better advantage..hmm,..since i ad spend like more than 15 years being a gal, and i'm still alive, guess i would jus stick back to being a gal..sigh..this title is harder to tok bout then i first think..guess i enjoyed being a gal too much..

ps: the only thing i think i'll enjoy being a guy is tat i can haf sex 24/7 n dun worry bout getting pregnant..hehehe..n no period..nice..for a fantasy tat will never come true.......

Semester break

hmmm..let me see..my finals sux n i dun wanna tok bout it..basically did nothing these few days except watching naruto n dvds..finish all of them ad..hehehe..

then spent time in the kitchen wif granny and let me see..going to be my cousin's private tutor starting tomolo..my diary is like one month behind..arghhh..so plan to update it after this..actually waste my time sleeping eating watching tv online playing mahjong etc..hehehe..
first few days when i came back i actually kept on thinking of studying..hehehe..must be post-exam syndrome..sigh..whenever wanna eat o sleep i'll think of studying..going to go crazy soon..after exam only got the urge to study..hehe..then yest when to watch divergence..sigh,,not as good as i expect it to be..but ok lor..not too bad..hehehe..

well today woke up late cos yest watch midnite show n erm lately i damn tired for no reason..when i wake up, i found i got no place to stay in vista..my hsmates all moving out..sigh..so later after much hassle, i finally confirm moving to elyne's place..sigh..the thing was jus finalised..jus hope tat i got place to stay..and not like las time..hehehe..well, my next movie will be xxx2..hehehe..dunno when going to watch but hopefully soon..

oh ya been driving ard the town these few days..still sux in driving..kinda surprised tat i din damaged anyone's car YET..hehehe..ok lar tat's all for now..going to eat junk food then neno a while only update my long-forgotten diary..sigh..

IMU Ball..

hehehe..i noe i'm super duper slow compare to the rest of my frens who already flooded their blogs wif pics n comments on the ball long time ago..hehehe..now i'm beginning to think that i'm more like a sloth than a chameleon..hehehe..oh well, first of all, i'm not going to post any pics on the ball here..bcos i dun haf any!!stupid camera played a trick on me..sigh..got myself armed wif plenty of batteries cos i noe i'll b taking pics till i drop..well, i DID took pics till i drop but none of them is using my camera..sigh..so it was kinda useless n mafan to carry my stupid camera..

on the whole it was the best ball i've ever been to..but then again, how many have i actually been too??hehehe..guess i like this one cos i basically prefer this time's make up rather than the last time one (i noe huey has been saying i look like a stepmother..hehehe..but who cares??i like it then can ad lar..)secondly the make up's i up to my mark n CHEAP..thanks to jiet hui and frens..hehehe..hmm and this time..for the first time in my life (pathetic i noe) i got a date!!hehehe..sigh..kelian my dear princess..sigh..sorry i left her alone..maybe tat's y she called me cinderella stepmum..am i tat old??sigh maybe..

one thing i hate bout this ball is the food..but then again..when did the food in these type of occassion does not sux??heehee..was quite glad my chicken did not fly to the next table..oh ya..would like to thanks Dylan for helping me potong the stupid super hard bread..sigh..the food was so western..so full of bread..yet lack of cheese..sigh..anyway, was walking all over the place all the time either wif huey o dylan o both..(yup u guessed it..they were my camera man..)hehehe..

dunno whether i really damn ugly o wat but most ppl seemed to be shocked to see me..really tat bad meh??hehehe..sigh..think so too..judging from all the pics..but i still think i look pretty tat nite..hehehe..not on photos though..sigh..i'm living in a denial world..wanted to take pic wif prof ong..but the batt in huey's camera went flat..stupid..oh ya..my sai lou n sai sai lou were very pretty wor tat day..hehehe..quite a lot of ppl were very pretty tat day..EVERYONE except tat princess huey.. =p

who ask her say i like stepmother..hehehe..well, frankly speaking, huey din make it to the list cos i ad expected her to be tat pretty lar..so only those seldom wear skirts n stuff make it to the list..btw, i wear skirts to uni everyday..sigh..ad sem 3 n still a lot of ppl come telling me they nv seen me in skirts bfore..either u weren't paying attention, o my roughness hides away the skirts..hehehe..

hmmm din noe which paragraph to insert this..should be at the beginning i guess..but nvm lar..i AM a messy gal..well, we were late at the ball and guess wat..the door wasnt closed as promised..hehehe..why late??cos i was slow in getting ready..cos desmond's car went into smoke halfway the journey..was enjoying myself watching him neno the car..ya..i noe i'm a sadist..hmmm..why late again??oh ya was taking pic outside the ballroom..damn reluctant to get in..plus i jus sprained my ankle..was act surprise tat i could get on my heels but had to walk awkwardly cos it still hurts..thank God dylan was around..hehehe..so was act taking my own sweet time getting into the ball room..

ok..guess this will be enuff bout the ball..for those interested bout teh pics pls visit acrix blog..hmmm..look around lar..sure got ppl put one..oh ya n princess huey's frenster..hehehe..me not putting any pics..

It's NOW or NEVER

If you're mad with someone , and nobody's there to fix the situation... You fix it .
Maybe today, that person still wants to be your friend . And if u don't, tomorrow can be too late .
If you're in love with somebody , but that person doesn't know... tell her/him.
Maybe today, that person is also in love with you . And if you don't say it, tomorrow can be too late .

If you really want to kiss somebody... kiss her/him.
Maybe that person wants a kiss from you, too . And if you don't kiss her/him today, tomorrow can be too late .

If you still love a person that you think has forgotten you... tell her/him.
Maybe that person have always loved you. And if you don't tell her/him today , tomorrow can be too late.
If you need a hug of a friend... ask her/him for it.
Maybe they need it more than you do. And if you don't ask for it today, tomorrow can be too late.
If you really have friends who you appreciate... tell them.
Maybe they appreciate you as well. That if you don't and they leave or go far away today , tomorrow can be too late.

If you love your parents, and never had the chance to show them... do it .
Maybe you have them there to show them how you feel. That if you don't and they leave today , then tomorrow can be too late.

A Stroke of BAD Luck

it's been a bad day for me yest..first, i was sick after the trip from Ipoh..sigh..was having flu n stuff..next, jus when i tot of sleeping in as we only had class at 1.30, elyne came to my place asking for Grace's ID..so i drag myself off the bed, reluctantly..went reach uni, found out tat the computers in the e-labs are either not functioning or it's already been occupied..sigh..what luck..finally found a place..then turn out i couldn't log in due to some 'technical' reasons..so used joe's account..

as i was using other ppl's account, i couldnt print my stuff..so had to print later..went in late for both lectures..then after lectures, couldnt find a single functioning unoccupied computers..found one in e lab 4..comehow, i only managed to print 1 page out of my 9 page lab report..the ret din come out for some reasons n my print quota was minused..sigh..next, i went out of library, fuming madly..next thing i noe i slipped down the escalator n fell..as i was about to pick myself up again, i slipped again due to my inability to balance..so in the end i got my stuff scattered around the place and my heels were spoilt, and of course, the climax of the whole scene, i sprained my ankle..sigh..

then at nite, dylan came n massage/rub the area for me..then, we felt the building shaking..at first i tot was me feeling giddy n stuff, elyne on the other hand tot i was shaking the bed (we were both sitting on the bed)..no one realise till when dylan said out loud tat the building was shaking..next tat happen is wat i called a total mess..the same time when we discovered the building was shaking, my housemate came back..n my two seniors was out of their room..so there was a lot of conversations going on..my only worry was whether if the building will collapse..hehehe..sounds weird now..but tat was how i feel..then i sudd realised i jus sprained my ankle n if the building were to collapse, i will be the first to perished..sigh..thanks to my great housemates, who accompanied me step by step nv thinking of going first n leaving me bhind..we literally walked down a flight of stairs fom the tenth floor this way..the whole scene in the stairs can be depicted as a mini september 11 scenario..except there's less ppl n panic all together..

when reach the ground floor, i joined elyne to go insearch of huey..saw her in pyjamas wif the rest of the imu ppl outside imu..in the end, i slept overnite at my uincle's place wif huey n elyne..i cant bear the pain of going up again wif my sprained ankle..sigh so i opt for a place which doesnt required me to climb stairs n stuff..went to see doc this morning n got two days mc..a tern advice from the doc tat i should not put weight on my left foot for two days..thus, i cant walk for two days except for going to toilet etc..sigh..

even at the breaks where i was allowed to walk at minimal level, i find walking such a torment..so for ppl out there who takes walking for granted, it's time for u to appreciate both ur legs..and for ppl like elyne who thinks walking can be achieved by jus one leg, i'm so sorry to say that u're utterly wrong.. :p

mOThS!!n more..

guess it's time for me to make this place alive again..hehehe..lately damn stress..basically is cos i'm having my practical exam on microbiology tomolo..n a class test on monday which i have NOT revised yet..then another class test on next fri..sigh..the msian project is coming too..including two more reports to write..and i'm left wif only 3 weeks for this semester..and yet..i'm planning to go to the ball..wat's wrong wif me??arghh..like right now, i'm supposed to study for tomolo's exam..n i'm here blogging n msn-ing..sigh..jus SICK of studying lar..

basically i'm getting out of the topic..plan to blog bout moths..hehe..and how scared of them i were..for those who are elyne's constant fan, i guess u'll noe wat i'm toking bout..hehehe..i actually went to her place to spend a nite cos i'm afraid of the moth lingering around my room..well..it jus happen yest, while i was busy doing my pharmaco project, the same species of moth flew in again..sigh..u can guess how terrified i am..as i was damn busy i did not really freaked out as bfore..but as it settled down near me, i began to change my ind..called elyne for help..and being a good fren she came down to my place n caught the moth for me..despite tat it was around 1.30 am..for those animal lovers..u'll be glad to noe tat we did not kill the moth..jus merely put it in a plastic bag wif sufficient holes for air to go thru..but being soft hearted..hehehe..i untied the plastic bag (which we left near the dustbin in the kitchen) and..yup, u guessed it..as soon as i untied the plastic bag, i ran back to my room as fast as i could..sigh..pathetic huh?

i dunno why my place always has so many moths coming..esp my room..sigh..can anyone tell me y??is there any explanation bhind it??hehe..well, i was so scared tat more would come, i ask elyne to close my window n decided to turn on the air-con..din dare to go near the window in case there were more..hehe..well, enuff of moths toking..

tomolo or rather today, i'm supposed to conduct the msian studies class on my own..we're supposed to discuss bout the project we're doing..but frankly speaking, i doubt tat the attendance will be of satisfactory..and i can see dylan's face smiling at me now..a face which keeps on telling me tat i look like our msian studies lecturer..sigh..i dunno which part of me, whether facial features, character, etc, tat reminds them(agnes, yee huey, elyne dylan etc) of her..let's jus hope everything will turn out fine..

had microbiology presentation today..presented case 11..sigh..too bad i din get to present case 6..hehehe..presented wif yee huey n agnes..supposed to be individual work..hehehe..somehow we manage to persudae Mr Khalid to allow us to present it together..damn funny lar esp when others are doing it alone...hehehe..great experience though..hand in my pharmaco draft today (shud b yest) to prof yeoh..hehehe..manage to finish it by dawn..so i kinda slept for a few hours only..

hmm..may o may not go to imu ball..depending on the situation..hehe..funny thing is i'm not tat keen in going to it..not tat much..mayb cos i'm too busy to even think..sigh..oh well, it doesnt matter much if i'm going o not..hehhe..at least ta's true for me..btw, CHRISTINA WONG, if u're reading this, where's my dance club t-shirt???sigh..everyone in my class are so tensed up till they may explode at anytime..tat's true for me too..ok will stop here now..will blog again when i'm on the verge of having a neervous breakdown again..

Do Not Read..You'll Regret..

Had not blog for a long time..sigh..due to many reasons lar..jus found out from a conversation wif my fren tat there's something i cant tolerate bout other ppl..sth which i hadn't change despite of my 'chameleon' character..

somehow i totally dislike n disagree wif ppl who are either really brainless, or they haf the brain but choose not to use the full capacity of them..to me it all come to the same point tat to a certain extent they are brainless..i noe it seem harsh to a certain point n i noe some of them jus cant help it but somehow i jus cant seem to accept the fact..

i jus cant help feeling tat such ppl shouldn't exist in this planet..maybe i'm to close-minded..maybe ..maybe not..wat's the logic behind a person who is qualified as a professional but act as an idiot in front of his o her lover??a person who is qualified to be a professional clearly shows tat he/her has a certain amount of IQ and plenty of active grey cells within the brain..but how can one human being stooped so low tat even a school kid will tell u tat the person is brainless??perhaps it's bcos of love..perhaps..but pls..wake up from ur dream..there are no more fairytales which u used to believe when u were a kid..life is a reality..u haf to learn by hoook o by crook tat nothing is forever..no matter how strong n sweet ur relationships are, it will not last..no matter how deeep is ur love for each other it will not last..it's kind of obvious by jus looking at the divorce rate..Asians are fortunate in the sense tat divorce is not encourage..but still, the numbers are rising too!!

if the person is jus slow in watever thing he/she is doing bcos he/she is born (sad to say) brainless, tat i can more o less accept n sympathise..but an individual, who has the capabilities and brain, for some reason o other refuse to use it, makes my blood boil till it evaporates..i noe it seems a bit exaggerating but i guess tat's the only way i can relate my feelings..mayb i'm too emotional cos even when i'm typing now i could feel my blood boiling..

some of u may say: why bother??watever the person does is non of ur business wat...true..it has nothing to do wif me..nothing at all..not until that 'brainless' person becomes ur fren..then u get to see more of he/her more..and sees more of his/her idiotic and pathetic self..u'll feel helpless for not able to change the way he/she does things..i too would love to not bother wif tat person but truthfully, i cant..for some reasons i jus cant stop feeling angry whenever he/she turns from a brilliant n clever person to a brainless n idiotic person in a flash..

maybe i too am brainless..too hopeless too perhaps..who moes maybe u're always tolerating at my frequent brainless n idiotic way..well in tat case, like all brainless ppl, i'll NOT care the least of wat u think bout me..hehehe..perhaps tat's the reason why brainless ppl will always be brainless..but then again, like i said, nothing is forever..maybe one day brainless ppl will finally be enlighten..

A Tribute to a Friend..The Best I've Ever Had..

Thanks Sin Siu..Thanks for everything you did..without u, there will never be the me today..Thanks for ALWAYS being there when i needed u..although i had treated u a rotten way (during Form 2), u never ceased to be my fren, my soul, my diary, my teacher, my guardian, my angel, my everything..they say ppl whom u met in life will never leave ur life without leaving a footmark..if tat's true, u're the one who has the deepest mark in my life..through ur own ways knowingly or unknowingly, u taught me things tat can never be taught in schools..through ur little ways, u showed ur care in bundles..u are the only one who noes me so thoroughly tat sometimes it surprises me..even before i speak, u noe wat i'm going to say..in you, i found my perfect fren..and because of you, i hope to be, in turn, your perfect fren..thank you once again, my fren, the BEST i've ever had..

The Power of Words

Just realised how powerful words can be..be it spoken or written..by choosing ur words carefully,not only can u convey ur msg across, u can HURT or WARMTH others' heart depending on ur own will..to be able to do tat, u must of course be well equipped with vocabulary of tat particular language..

A certain msg can be conveyed very tactfully..so tat the recipients are protected from the 'sharpness' of the words..the SAME msg can be conveyed less tactfully..for those weak-hearted beware!!this also goes to show the beauty of words (and also the skills of the user)..some words when used alone seems dull and unprovocative..but when used together, it can touched other ppl's life, hurt them and evoked many more complex emotions..

Guess it's time for me to honed my skills..skill in using words, skill in communicating etc..i wonder how many hearts have i touched jus by using words?certainly less than those i've heard..yes..unfortunately i belonged to the group of people who can 'kill' people using just my tounge (pls dun think dirty)..but i believed tat i'm getting better nowadays..and one of my aims is to be able to touched ppl's life with the same tounge which was used to hurt ppl bfore..

As usual, it's always easier to be a bad person than a good person..found it extremely hard to achieved my aims..for once, in my entire life, i feel like being quiet..so tat i can neither do harm nor good..

Answers..And More Questions..

It's been quite a while since i last blog..hehehe..basically is tat i'm lazy to blog and i dun find the need to blog..cos Elyne has got most of the stuff in her blog ad..so why repeat??(in other words i lazy lar..hehe)

Refering back to the old blog on my search for my identity, i believe i've found out who am i..i am a chameleon..yes a chameleon..a very good one too..i'm capable of blending myself to diff situations and surroundings..hence the huge variety in my character n attitude..i'm SO good tat even i myself am confused..as to which is the 'REAL' me..

Then i realised tat everything i protrayed is the real me..i change my opinions on sth n my taste etc so quick tat at times even i myself find it hard to adapt..i jus cant help it..it occured naturally and almost spontaneously..and there's no stopping to it..so pls dun find me weird..so i guess my frens would haf to accomodate n tolerate wif me..so pls..jus accept me as who i am..

Been having some problems lately..which reminds me of a fren who used to think tat i dun mean wat i say cos i kept changing..sigh..i guess the best answer to it is tat my character n attitude is those which is prone to changes like the skin of the chameleon is prone to changing colour to adapt to its surrounding..i meant wat i said..at tat time..i jus cant guarantee to u if things will changed in future o not..

If u're thinking tat i've received a huge blow from someone recently which inspires me to write this, then i'm sorry to say tat u're wrong..been thinking a LOT bout it since i last blog it (pls refer to Feb 7 entry)..finally found an answer to it during Chinese New Year..i guessed tat's explain why this year i din really have the mood to celebrate new year as i was deep in thinking bout this..sigh so deep was the thinking tat even my Bro can sense tat something is very wrong wif me..but then again my Bro knew me well to know tat sth was not rite..

Ok..enuff of my chameleon-like-character..was quite sad today as i think i messed up ppl's relationship..although both parties din actually blame me..but i think i'm partly at fault..guess i interfere too much or interfere at the wrong time and wrong way..let's jus hope tat everything will be fine again..cos if not, i'll never forgive myself for wat i did..but then again, i may forget all about it tomolo..judging from my short-term memory..which is getting worse each day..sigh

sad..sad..sad cos i messed up too much..sad cos my best fren's mum is sick..she's been sick for quite some time..i think..hehe..(hope i din messed up wif the details)..she's having stomach pain..or was it abdominal pain..or does both terms mean the same??i'm not sure..all i noe is tat she's suffering from pain n she refused to see doc..so sad..and worried..cos she's like my mum to me too..i'm worried for her and yet there's nothing i could do..all i can do is to pray for her n hoped tat she's ok..

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Happy Valentine's Day

its been overall a HAPPY day for me today..hehehe..basically cos i won quite a lot tonight when i was at Ai Lynn's place..hehehe..secondly is cos i found out today i lose weight..due to my sickness i guess..hehehe..hope to maintain this weight for now..hehehe..ok lar that's all for now..for those deeply in love..and those single out there (like me) :
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

Who Am I??

forgot wat exactly triggered me to write this..but somehow i've been thinking who exactly am i??in other words i think i'm going thru the process which some of u had been thru before..i'm SEARCHING for my identity..i dunno who exactly am i..sounds weird huh?maybe..dunno wat sparked off..maybe a conversation between a fren..maybe is due to the events on few days back..but wat i realised is tat this has been an issue for a long time..jus tat i've been ignoring it for quite some time..since it's New Year soon, i guess it'll be better for me to 'selesaikan' it now..hehe..i guess i'm not those who can adapt to changes tat well gua..hehe..esp changes in me emotionally and mentally..sigh..i'm so confused to a certain stage tat i dunno who to continue this anymore..maybe when i've figured out a better way to express my thoughts thru words then i'll continue..for now all i wan to say is:
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

Is Everything Fated??

Was reading this book by Agatha Christie; titled Three Act Tragedy, and this paragraph caught my attention..it's potrayed in a different way..but in my opinion it's similiar to wat my M'sian Studies lecturer was telling us on Thurs..here's the whole paragraph which i quoted from the book:

Events come to people - not people to events.Why do some people have exciting lives while other people have dull ones?Because of their surroundings?Not at all.One man may travel to the ends of theearth and nothing will happen to him.there will be a massacre a week before he arrives,and an earthquake the day after he leaves, and the boat that he nearly took will be shipwrecked. and another man may live at Balham and travel to the City everyday, and things will happen to him. he will be mixed up with blackmailing gangs and beautiful girls and motor bandits. There are people with the tendency to shipwrecks - even if they go on an ornamental lake something will happen to it. In the same way men like your Hercule Poirot don't have to look for crime - it comes to them.

my M'sian Studies lecturer was pointing out the fact tat some people live a very smooth life where they always do the right thing at the right time and at the right place..Lady Luck seems to be smilling at them ALL the time..where as some people live a rotten life..watever they do seemed to be a failure..they do things at the wrong time at the wrong place..

if you fall into the category where things dun always worked the wat u wan it, fret not..Acc to the lecturer, God gave us two hands..one is fated to live the life u're destined to live..the other is for u to change ur destiny..some things are fated..others can be changed..so start changing ur life now..and STOP being pessimistic anymore..if you wanna change the way ppl treat u then change the way u think NOW..

HeLp!!

sigh..wanted to change the template of my blog to red/pink colour in conjunction of CNY..too bad.i dunno how..really feel like a technology idiot..hehe..so if any of u who read this pls help 'enlighten' me..thanks..

Friends...

Found this in my thumb drive..think i forgot to post it..even though some of the sentences does not stand true now, most of it still are..tat's y i decided to post it even though some may get offended after reading..hehe..so here goes..

Friends…What it REALLY means…

There’s no actual definition for the word friends.. Different people may have different concepts or opinion towards this particular word.. if u disagree wif my opinion, it’s ok, cos it only proves tat u are just another human, like me.. please take note tat these comments may not be true during later part of my life as my feelings and opinion fluctuates at every second of my life.. another thing I would like to warn viewers that this particular blog and those coming up may not be ur liking.. For this particular page I would like to comment on some of the meaning for FRIENDS (sorry if this sounds a bit formal..this is wat I call post-project syndrome..)

I used to feel that friends should not have any secrets between them.. Those who noe me well enough can verify that.. now, I feel that this definition cannot define the word FRIENDS thoroughly.. firstly, who on earth can have NO secrets at all.. A person wif no secrets, I’m sorry to say, haf no personality at all.. Look no further I was one of them.. I thought that by telling all my frens about how I feel towards them etc would help strengthen our relationship.. but I was WRONG.. utterly wrong.. Being straightforward may be good in some cases but the people today, including me, do not like to hear criticism from their frens although it’s TRUE.. once u hurt their feelings by being straightforward, be prepared to be ‘pulaukan’ by them for simple reasons like u’re not sensitive enough or u never filter ur thoughts etc.. other ideology includes that frens should be tolerant to each other and accept their weaknesses.. this brings us to my next point..

Many of us today feels that frens should be tolerant and accept each other’s weaknesses.. this like one of my previous definition of friends is another example of human’s utopia.. if this definition is true and everyone follows wat it says, there should be no discord among frens.. almost everyday at any corner of the world, frens, ranging from best frens, old frens, new frens etc, fall out among each other.. this will be the foundation of the typical gossips, backstabbing and all the ugly side of human.. remember, everyone is not perfect and everyone has the freedom to speak his/her mind.. having said tat, I don’t mean that I approve of ppl slandering each other.. although I despised backstabbers, we all must agree to an extend that the mouth is theirs..therefore they are free to make any comments, be it good or bad, about people and we have no right to interfere.. oops.. just figure out that I’ve side tracked a bit.. well back to our topic.. no one in this world can be 100% tolerant to one another and accept each other’s weaknesses and fault 100%.. not EVEN our parents.. from time to time there will be tiny little disagreements among friends.. if tolerance and acceptance is achieved 100%, will all this disagreements occur in the first place? How many of us actually saw friends around us become foes just because of a storm in a teacup? Because there’s no 100% tolerance and acceptance among humans (and it WILL NEVER be one except in ur dreams), small disagreements will end up to be big disagreements.. people who kept on insisting tat frens should be tolerant to each to other shortcomings may be THE one who make a big ‘hoo-ha’ about small matters like difference in opinions..

Finally, I think the best type of frens are those who trust u and from time to time have little disagreements wif u to entertain u towards ur ‘long’ journey through life.. I’m lucky to found a few of these frens.. but sadly to say, I’m far from being the ‘best’ type of frens..

Those who hates me to the core after finish reading this blog, all I can say is that I HAVE warned u.. so dun blame me, blame urself for being curious..

Ps: for those who feels tat frens should be 100% tolerant and accepting 100% of other people’s short coming, DO NOT, I repeat DO NOT, make any comments.. I dun wan to be ur excuse of breaking ur utopian definition of friends.. for those who beg to differ, pls feel free to comment about this blog.. Remember u are free to speak ur mind here..

It's Time...

Guess it's time for me to STOP being lazy..sigh..been pressured by friends from all corners to change over a new leaf..hehe..sounds weird i noe..but CHINESE NEW YEAR coming lar..haf to change..

New Year resolutions i guess..was quite surprised tat someone actually came and read my blog everyday..hehehe..well to my always loyal ai-ren..this blog is specially written for u as u're very anxious to noe bout my life here in IMU..

life's been so far so good..esp after the 'shark-pestering' incident..hehehe..nothing much happen soon after tat..except tat today's been an extremely BUSY day for me to catch up all tat i was lag behind all this while..hehe..erm.. basically woke up at ard 9 am n neno till 11 am only officially got up from bed..then went to bath at ard 12pm..while bathing half-way heard Dylan and Damiel's voices outside..seems tat my housemate let them in..neno wif them bfore meeting up wif Huey for lunch..came back at ard 1pm n start to clean and tidy my room like hell..went to Huey's place at ard 2.30pm..study my Biopharmacy there..

din help Agnes moved her stuff..sigh.. so guilty..but managed to revised finish wat i intended to do..slept for an hour or so before going to pasar malam wif Elyne n Huey..hehe..had great time there..walk back home cos couldn't find a taxi..but halfway Huey broke her slippers..so we got to take cab home..actually at tat time we're already very close to home..hehe..came back bath n online..tat was when i knew tat there's always someone who'll constantly go onine and view my blog..to this special friend who is also my dearest ai ren i thank you for ur constant support..i now know tat no distance can separate us..i'm constantly reminded tat i'll ALWAYS have a person to fall back on..

THANK YOU...

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2004 Overview

well this is going to be my longest blog ever..i hope..lots of things been wanting to say or write down but never got the chance esp now in sem 3..busy like hell..dun even haf time to breathe..wonder how the seniors survived..now finally got time to do wat i want..hehe..

well..since this is my first blog for this year, i think i would like to touch a few highlights of my life for last year..2004..hmm..beginning of last year..let's see..came to IMU..din noe ther were such thing call orientation..think i'm the only one who's so stupid enough not to noe about it..well, was quite glad to find out tat the orientation wasn't TAT bad after all..glad i went through it..hehe..now thinking back i kinda missed it..well next was the orphanage vusit we went..supposed to go every week..tat's wat they say lar..but u noe lar..hehe..went there once and tat's it..had great fun too..although all the kids are Indian (i'm NOT being racist here) and they (most of them at least) speaks Tamil..luckily there's Kalaivani to the rescue..hehe..then next would be the presentation of TAT particular visit..

next in the list should be the chinese singing competition..had great fun watching my frens sing..too bad i wasn't there during the finals..went to the semi-finals though..

hmm.then next should be the orientation of the bpharm..was a total failure i supposed..wat to do..u'll always need two hands to clap..was very happy bout semester 2 timetable..compared to semester 1 & 3 it was MUCH better..totally like nothing to do..one thing i hate is to having to go for malay n english class..not tat i hate english tat much but having to wake up EARLY just to attend a class is definitely not in my way of life, if i could help it..

on the whole both the english and malay classes was GREAT in a way..to destress urself i guess..but i was having great difficulty in malay class..sigh..kan dah lama tak guna..manalah ingat..kalau nak bahasa pasar bolehlah aku pass..tapi sekarang nak bahasa standard..matilah aku..even when i took my SPM essay to hand in when the lecturer told us to hand in one as homework, the lecturer say the essay was not done by me..sigh..u see how poor my malay standard has gone to..was damn happy bout the english project i did with joyce, elyne and chee mun..hehe..felt tat it was the best in the class..hehe..

well..this semester did a lot of project..was damn glad i was in the group for physio project..everyone contributed and there was no one who did NOTHING..which was a BIG deal..cos from my past experience, i've never come across to a group where everyone did at least something..damn happy man..

well another worth to mention project which is my foundation pharmacy project - glaucoma..i often felt tat by the time i finish doing tat project i'll be getting glaucoma..well..enuff of the ups..now for the downs..actually only one down lar..

so far i would say tat my life in IMU was a happy one cos the ups is always more than the downs..hehe..well, it was during semester 2 i kinda drift away from someone who got VERY VERY CLOSE to me..the reason?well, if u really wish to noe, come to see me PERSONALLY..hehe..cos i dun think i shud be publishing my private life here..esp when it concerned about others..dunno whether was a good thing o not..but it really hit me HARD..i always like to think about it as a blessing in disguise..hehe..watever it is one thing that's for sure-it's God's way of challenging me..cheem har?maybe..i din get thru this obstacle of my life(i consider it a major one) ALONE..tat's for sure..thank God i haf very good frens who always stand by me..whom i noe will ALWAYS be there when i need them..who will never leave me for wat-so-ever reasons..thanks to them(u noe who u are..if u need clarification, u can always come to me..hehe..but i'm pretty sure u guys noe who u are..and rest assure i will always be there for u..)i manage to go through this period of time i would rather forget..they let me noe in their own way tat i'll never be alone..

well..i guess tat's all bout my first year in IMU..i shud be getting to write about the beginning of Sem 3..dun be so impatient..think i'll add a few words as to the period of time in between semester 2 and semester 3..the time when i seem to 'disappear'..for those who din noe (but i guess most of u close to me would haf heard bout it either from the horse mouth or from somewhere else), i went to melbourne for holidays during this break..was a great holiday..hehe..had great fun..din really believe i actually went there..would love to post some pics one..but too bad lar..i seriously is a computer idiot..how i manage to blog i oso dunno..so LAI ELYNE, if u're reading this..teach me how to post my pics..hehe..thanks..

hmm..not going to elaborte about it lar..cos it would take forever to finish..jus wanna let those of u who tried to sms me o call me during tat time but couldn't get any reply that i went elsewhere for holiday..hehe..

well..beginning of semester 3..the microbiology lab..wat else..hmm..then next shud me my mum n sis came to kl..went for shopping spree..hehe..damn happy..bought plenty of stuff..hehe..now moving on..tat will be xmas eve and xmas day..spend my festive season wif family..din stay at home though..went out wif bro n sis n bro's frens..damn fun..

on xmas day, dad brought us all the way to kota tinggi for my so-called brunch..ate seafood..damn nice..missed the food now..sigh dunno when only can go there again..well..last but not least..new year eve..hehe..stayed at home..yup..u guessed it..spend it wif family!!yay!!but this time, i got drunk..dun ask me how..somehow i drank too much..got drunk at ard 11.30pm..not even new year yet..hehe..hmm..tat's all for now..very long ad wor..hehe..

MeRry ChrIstMas

had lab session today..on Christmas eve somemore..thank God for this lab no need to do report..supposed to do protein models today n link up to make beta sheets etc..my lab partner abandoned me after knowing i add Cystine in my protein..sigh..so kelian..luckily keli 'adopted' me..hehe..well, starting to miss my friends ad..sigh..anyway MERRY CHRISTMAS n HAPPY NEW YEAR to all..

SiEnz

Today is the hottest day in the year..in Dec somemore!!sigh..then the water was cut for GOd-noes-wat reason..stupid pollution now the whole world's weather is changed..used to haf cool wind and plenty of rain around this time of the year..but look at the weather now..more n more unpredictable..sigh..making my day lagi worst..still on my way to be a ball..think i'm going to succeed soon..think got to stop here for now..hungry.......

My HOlidays!!

well..i noe i've been missing all this while..hehe..sorry lor..my holidays were a lot more fun n less meaningful than miss Lai Elyne..hehe..

first of all cos i did not haf any part time jobs during the holidays although my mum kept on bugging me to find one..u may say that i'm lucky cos no need work only relax at home but then hor i think staying at home like me all the time very dangerous ler..sigh..i'm dangerously becoming like a ball..just went n measure my waist..guess how much..u guys sure wont believe one..

my waist is now 30 inch..scary man..even larger than my mum..sigh..now cant wear any nice baju ad..sigh..damn bored at home n i'm kinda like detach from the world for a long time ad..dunno wat's going on..very sien lar..ok lor tat's all for now..jus feel like dropping a few words cos got ppl scold me for being so lazy ad..wont be blogging for a long long time..cos erm..malas lor..as usual..hehe..on the whole hoidays are great except tat i hef my whole figure ruined..sigh..

Post Exam Syndrome

I’m seriously damn bored now..stucked in IMU for no reason..sigh..just came back from my lecturer’s room..been in there for nearly 2 long gruelling hours..dun be mistaken, I’m not being grounded..was supposed to collect my draft from him..so how long does it takes to collect a draft?? From my past experience, I would have told u the most it takes is 15 minutes (including all the explanation from ur lecturer)..

but today I spent two hours in his room..sigh..strange huh..it’s because he haf not marked my draft n is marking it right in front of me today... ish.. damn pissed off..wasted my whole day.. doesn’t really matter oso lar.. was going to rot soon due to boredom.. I actually handed him my draft 2 months ago n he din even bother to read it..the system here really sux..

here we are rushing for datelines etc n the lecturers are taking their own sweet time doing their stuff..cant they be more responsible..sigh..my post exams periods are not fun at all..yesterday right after that neno paper set by a very neno lecturer, I intend to go midvalley to enjoy myself.. in the end I ended up having to avoid people I noe..sigh..terrible huh.. but it’s really damn awkward to see them lar..nothing to tok and for a person who LOVES toking so much, it’s a torture..

so ended up in MPH (after exams..can u imagine tat??)well was having a nice quiet noon there reading books till agnes came..hehe..thanks people(agnes, elyne, tze yan n yee huey) for tat lovely gift..was a surprise..then walk around the mall wif yee huey aimlessly.. planned to watch movie but lady luck was not on my side.. went home after dinner..was dead tired but still went all over the place in bt jalil..was enjoying myself..

FINALLY..was damn tired n went to bed late..woke up damn late today..n went out wif agnes..then came back n sit for two hours in a lecturer's room, staring at him while all my frens are all out with a date..sigh..pooor single me...